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The setting is such: I am sitting in meditation, my mind in emptiness practicing the elixir. In the kitchen my family is sitting eating icecream, delighting over the flavour. Within the emptiness I make this observation: -non-corporeal mind: "The sensation of eating icecream is known to them before eating this icecream, as well as after it. The sensation of eating it is percieved with the same organs as the memory of percieving it, making this sensation available at any instance, and in any place. Yet, there exists the distinction that the act of eating icecream is limited in time, limited in availability, and destructive for the body. The memory of eating icecream is not. Why, then, do we partake in the act of something, when we already know it and can visit that sensation beyond the limitations of temporal and corporeal experience?" -corporeal mind: "because icecream is tasty, stupid." -non-corporeal mind: "never mind. you go back to fanticizing about partaking in destructive behaviour, and I'll go back to experiencing reality beyond the limitations of space and time, becoming one with all existance through emptiness." -corporeal mind: "like, yeah, whatever. geek." The reason that I share this is because I want to know if anyone else experiences these sensations of a mindsplit. I feel like when I meditate my consciousness passes through a gate and into another form, one existing in boundless emptiness, beyond space and time. When I am there, I am simply aware of everything, perceiving reality clearly. However, as soon as i pass back this consciousness fades. I step out of the gate, and my consciousness returns to this limited existance. However, for every time I dive into it, passing the gate, it is like I take a small drop from that ocean back with me. I don't know if this is what is called the gate of mystery in taoism. I have also noticed that recently, the gate is easier. It's like I can see through it, getting glimpses of the mystery even when I am not meditating. Feeling emptiness in my actions and thoughts even when out of meditation. I am experimenting with it, seeing how I act when i act in emptiness. like, doing the dishes in emptiness, playing with the kids in emptiness, walking to the bus in emptiness, shopping groceries in emptiness. Speaking to people in emptiness remains impossible... Posting this in emptiness also seems to activate too much of my desire for gratification and curiosity to remain, as expected.