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I had psychotic relapse after retaining semen. Initially I liked increased energy levels, improvements in cognitive abilities. I came at better acceptance of my mental illness. After few days I started thinking that all girls around me were attracted to me. It was exciting at first. I started getting interested in religion and spirituality. I don't know when I became psychotic. I started having self-referencing thoughts. I don't remember many things in detail. I want to mention that I had taken treatment for psychosis. I have read it quite a few times that semen retention has caused psychotic breakdown for people. Some cases it unmasks latent psychosis. In mine I had psychotic relapse. Thing I want to know if it is safe for a person like me to practice taoist sexual methods. It is highly likely I didn't practice these correctly as I was referencing books and a teacher. Or I should just stay away from them. And if there are other taoist methods which can help with mental health. Another thing I want to say is I am not fond of spiritual aspect of taoism. Or any other religion for that matter. You guys might find it off-putting and annoying. I found these things way complicated and difficult to understand. And mainstream religions psychosis inducing. I was and still am solely interested in physical aspect of taoism. Quite similar to yoga.

This is a very good video series explaining some basic errors that can be met while trying to engage in practical Daoist meditations. The first video is a great summary even for experts. The best benefit however is for self-initiates and newbies who are often clueless where to begin and whether they can safely practice on their own. The answer to that is: it depends on many conditions chiefly involving health and the purity of mind, but being too sure of oneself can spell disaster. Deviations are not fun and can take a long time to heal, yet very often we can witness on this forum also how people have casual disregard for their own well-being. As if they were completely immune to any shortcomings and mistakes, and as if mastery was attained with the snap of fingers! It's good to be informed that these deviation conditions exist. Teacher who can observe and help you correct yourself before unwitting mistakes and errors escalate into sickness is baseline for great teaching skill. Video 1: Video 2: Video 3: Video 4: Video 5:

I cannot help but notice that people demand to be correct when they say "money makes the world go 'round". Is it truly an offense of truth and fact to assert that money is not by any means necessary, or that quality life can be achieved by freeing ourselves of the bondage that is the centralization of resources? I've been arguing all day, it seems, with anyone and everyone who will say it. Perhaps if there were evidence that i was incorrect, rather than self-important and self-proclaimed arguments of "greater good"s this or "necessities" that, "populations" are more important than persons, "we cant live like that anymore" self perpetuated lies, and "my rights" belie any responsibilities... What is the deal, honestly?