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Hi everyone! I am new to these forums, but in the past I have read some of the entries here as a lurker with great interest. I am in my early 30s. I've been studying and practicing Zen for the past 12 years. I took precepts as a layperson and also the Bodhissatva vow (oops, in retrospect that one was more than I bargained for). My practice lately involves sitting for 45 minutes a handful of times per week with my sangha here in Northern California, doing trauma release exercises (TRE) with a licensed practitioner once a week, and a bunch of mundane grounding stuff. I also see Buddhist trauma-informed therapist 2x a week. Lately I have been working on my soma and getting in touch with the somatic element of experience. My upbringing was chaotic and unsafe so I had a very above-the-neck experience of self until these past few years where I established a sense of embodied safety. That journey is still ongoing and I guess a part of my interest in joining this forum was to chat with others who are also getting in touch with the soma and working with the felt sense in an embodied way. I have some questions for the forum and I'd be really interested to hear others' perspectives on the following: I have done Iyengar yoga for a number of years and I have enough sensitivity that I can feel areas of "dense" energy within the body. With time, trauma therapy, meditation, and surrender these areas are beginning to "break up" and leave. What do you make of this? I believe from a western perspective these "dense" areas might be character armoring. It feels good for the energy to begin to break up and flow but this is all very new to me, since I was dissociated for over 25 years. In particular I'm struggling with a feeling of stuck energy in my throat. Pieces break off but I'm torn between wanting this energy to leave and accepting that it can only resolve at the rate it resolves and it's not totally in my control. Does anyone have advice for gently working through energy blockages? Does anyone have a qigong master or practice group they recommend for someone in the Bay Area? I'm interested in safely cultivating qi, learning to ground and protect my own qi (I worry I am too "open"), and learning to let go of dense energy from the past. I apologize if any of these questions don't really make sense. For a long time I was too afraid to discuss qi with anyone, since I live in a western materialist culture and these ideas are not a part of my culture of origin. Anyway, thank you for reading and cheers.

So guys I will be honest and open minded since I read all kind of stuff and people was open minded wouldn't luagh or offend someone so 1- I started training long ago and was doing lil inner training and cultivation since until now I didn't find any source all would agree 100% and I really wanted to do a good start a cultivation with really excellent foundation my goals I will be honest my primary goals isn't immortalty wisdom engi or healing they are just sub goals my main is for inner martial arts get stronger and for that I know important of basics and foundation so I can advance well since I do martial arts but I really can't find any real life master and most of master in online can't really trust one 100% and they all do for yourself not that u would have that very good foundation and stuff so would anyone have a book or topic or anything can help me start it's been years asking searching around get experience bout qiqong niedan etc but it took too long and until now can't risk with something I am not sure of and thanks guys wish you help)) sec is I had some questions 1- is that phone and video treating really a thing how qi could be send from a distance or control patient 2- could a master see your qi flow and your mistakes etc throw online video chat )) and wish you try help me start my path for cultivation for real. Sorry again for my long topic

I've been practicing martial arts for about 30 years off and on and recently decided to put everything else on hold and focus on energy -- namely, cultivation, storing and utilizing qi. When I heard about this forum, I thought it would be a great place to find out what has worked for others. It's a long, lonely road and I figured that perhaps others may have stumbled upon ways to expedite the journey or somehow get more "bang for your qigong buck!" Through this forum, I'm hoping to get some new ideas and perspectives on energy work, make new friends and perhaps meet a few masters!