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I had psychotic relapse after retaining semen. Initially I liked increased energy levels, improvements in cognitive abilities. I came at better acceptance of my mental illness. After few days I started thinking that all girls around me were attracted to me. It was exciting at first. I started getting interested in religion and spirituality. I don't know when I became psychotic. I started having self-referencing thoughts. I don't remember many things in detail. I want to mention that I had taken treatment for psychosis. I have read it quite a few times that semen retention has caused psychotic breakdown for people. Some cases it unmasks latent psychosis. In mine I had psychotic relapse. Thing I want to know if it is safe for a person like me to practice taoist sexual methods. It is highly likely I didn't practice these correctly as I was referencing books and a teacher. Or I should just stay away from them. And if there are other taoist methods which can help with mental health. Another thing I want to say is I am not fond of spiritual aspect of taoism. Or any other religion for that matter. You guys might find it off-putting and annoying. I found these things way complicated and difficult to understand. And mainstream religions psychosis inducing. I was and still am solely interested in physical aspect of taoism. Quite similar to yoga.

So a little over a year ago now I had come across Mantak Chia's book for sexual cultivation. I was very excited to figure out how to send the energy up the spine and preserve my jing. It's been an interesting journey and its honestly been quite hard for me to cultivate this. At times I experienced extreme fatigue, depression, zits along my spine, etc. After a while it started to get easier though. And I have gained a lot of strength and limberness along my spine during this time. So here is what I am still struggling with now: It seems the more I do 'jing excercises' and send energy up the spine, the greater urge I have to ejaculate. I have tried to force my body not to ejaculate while I am doing lots of 'jing exercises', but this will lead to chronic fatigue, numbness of emotions, and literally waking up in middle of night with strong urge to masturbate and ejaculate. I listen to my body when I get to this point and I feel much better after release. To me, it seems overdoing 'jing exercises' (depending on your cultivation) causes the Jing to become toxic or overloaded with 'negative energy' and then body wants to release. I have currently found a happy medium where I don't do much of these 'jing exercises' and I ejaculate about once a week with my partner. I mostly do other meditations and Qi Gong and purposely avoid doing any pelvic floor exercises. But I would love to be able to cultivate my Jing as much as I want and not have a strong urge to ejaculate. So my question would be is there any other way to ground this energy when I feel this way? I literally start to get negative symptoms if I don't ejaculate in these scenarios, but would much preferably find a different way and save my energies. I also think I may have been overdoing it for my level of cultivation. I would sometimes keep my pelvic floor engaged for several hours.(I wonder if the goal to always have the pelvic floor engaged and be constantly sending up energy?) Doing it this much was be very interesting because when I would do it this much I would sometimes feel like I am on a mushroom trip. Trees starting to look holographic and feel very connected to nature. And what's great is that even when I am not doing the exercises now my visuals are much enhanced. But, asides from the cool visuals, I would start to feel worse and worse the longer I would do this. thanks for any wisdom you throw my way

I don't know how to explain this. If this was said to me some five years ago, when I had not done semen retention, I would call them directly crazy. Some very strange things have taken place in my life. Right after ejaculation great suffering follows me. In my mental state I am completely fine but what happens is people who surround me, family, friends, neighbors, people on news(in my country), everything suffers. This has not happened only once. I don't remember exactly when this phenomenon started to come in cycle. Now it has happened more than I could count. I stopped thinking about it, but it follows, even if I forget or try to live a normal life. Here are some repeated phenomenon that occurs after the loss of sexual energy: Same people contacting me or coming to my house after relapse. (i even see this phenomenon in facebook, people sharing posts and updating status.) Neighbor having a fight and attacking each other. Hearing news about car accident and someone dying or bus accident and a group of people dying all at once (my streak goes from 20- 30 days and in those periods of time no such phenomenon happens. Exactly after 4 days everything stops or I don't see them happening until I relapse) New problem arises in the mind of my parents and they have a negative discussion as well. Everything changes. Also, I feel that those people who are unawakened, or those who walk on everyday life as normal beings, are affected. Sometimes positively as well. My analysis is that we all have our perception. Retaining seed makes one individual's perception a lot stronger that it bends reality. All people near you, people in your imagination, everything that is related to you is affected once you relapse. There is no escape from it. Bad luck is mandatory after relapse. Also, what I have found is that retaining seed stops some event from happening and as soon as you relapse those events will follow. Like today I got stock dividend from the companies I had invested on. And all other events followed me one by one. My only question remains is how and why this is happening? Is retaining seed making me live in another dimension that as soon as I relapse earthly things follow me? Or is there something vaguely unknown energy on work? I don't want this to happen. I want things to go in a smooth flow, not relapse changing things and making many event happen. I know some of you have not experienced this. (because maybe you have not still awakened your sexual centers, or whatever through lots of force retaining) But I know some of you have experienced this exact phenomenon. Please comment your experience. Your explanation would be helpful as well.

Hi, my female partner and I have a question about "jing". We have determined that at my age and physical condition, it is best that I conserve my jing as best I can. (semen retention, recirculation of the energy) However, she feels that she needs as much male jing as possible for her balance. We have found a young devotee (male) to help her in that regard. He shares his jing with her about two times per week. Here is my question: I have heard that it is bad for a woman to receive jing from more than one male. (Her body gets confused, or something like that) Since it is wise for me to retain, is it advisable that I no longer share my jing with her at all? It seems this leaves two basic options: first, I am allowed intercourse with her, but be sure to retain my semen. The second--and it is her choice--that I do not have intercourse with her at all. Does anyone have experience or comments on this? I have read (not a reliable source) that the "Jade Dragon" does not share semen with his "White Tigress" and that she only receives semen from the "Green Dragons". Thank you in advance for any advice. David