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Hi ppl, I'm getting a strange new symptom and I'm wondering if anybody here knows what is going on. I am a sufferer of what you guys call kundalini syndrome and I got it spontaneously without any spiritual aspiration, past or present. I seem to have lost most of my emotions, both good and bad. I first noticed it a week and a half ago, when a crazy psychopath shot up a school and killed a bunch of kids. Normally, like most people, I would have reacted strongly to such news. But instead, I found myself with no reaction at all. It was like receiving the news of the weather, the stock market, or celebrity gossip. I had no feeling whatsoever. I tested myself by watching disturbing videos, like this worm eating contest: Normally this kind of thing would make me totally vomit, but again, I had no reaction. I also did a google image search for the most disgusting and vile thing I can think of, the infamous "harlequin ichthyosis". (*WARNING* don't search for this unless if you want to be severely disturbed!!!) I remember the first time I saw the pictures a few years ago and it totally grossed me out. But now those evil zombie eyes do nothing to perturb my unusual sense of calm. Ahhh... calmness, no emotion, no fear, no disgust, no anxiety, no attachment. The Stoics held this state in high regard, And it would be all fine and dandy, if I were unaffected only be negative events. Unfortunately, "kundalini" does not have the intelligence that some people ascribe to it, and I find myself unaffected by positive events as well. Today is Christmas, and i should be feeling festive, but I am not. 2 days ago I was at an Xmas party and I left early due to boredom. The day before that I received an unexpected bonus and even that didn't affect me. Now don't get me wrong.... I'm not depressed. I don't feel bad. But I don't feel good either. It looks like I'm stuck at a neutral zero point, devoid of feeling. And everything is so boring and bland here, when the emotions are gone. And It seems like my thinking is also slower, as it took me over half an hour to compose this post. So I ask you guys, WTF is happening to me, and how do I stop it and then hopefully reverse it? I want my emotions back, and I want to return to the way that I was before this shit happened to me. Thanks.