Everything Posted June 2, 2012 (edited) While allowing more, resisting less and less sexual energy, I woke up with an apifiny. Apifiny is what you call it right? I'm also decreasing my resistance towards the love energy! I have never understood what people ment by "love is everythig" up untill now. You know what they were trying to tell us all allong? Everything is in love! =D No seriously... All emotion we experience is love, and I have realized this now. We are love... If we were not love, love would not be the natural state of being that follow the "letting go, allowing, flowing" part. Thats why they say "falling in love!" because you have never completely been in love untill you release all resistance and allow your self to fall in love! Without judgement. Infact, th negative judgement and believe clean up is already done by sexual transmutation practices. You cannot allow such great energies to flow and yet have have mental resistance. You will manifest all kinds of accidents in your experience otherwise. Especially if you do not allow your self to look at the things that seem to push your buttons or make you feel bad. The blockages we have in our life, that prevent us from allow fuller expressions of our selves to come trough us. In the end, all negative believes resist the naturall self, which is love. How can I say the natural self? Becoming love itself self is not about trying or doing. Just like forgiving is not about action. Its about what not to do. Well? Stop resistance, fall down, let go, allow and allow and allow and allow! That simple =D You all know that the moment of fear is really an indication of negative believes. Fear is also love. It is your energy! Processes trough the filter of negative believes. Fear is like heat building up in a coil with too much resistance. Release resistance and you got perfect pure love, the naturall self, flowing trough you. We are living light. When I'm talking about "we are love" I mean it. When I say that all feelings are but diffrent degrees of resistance towards our naturall self, I just made that one up my self! =D I was lying in bed, enjoying so much sexual energy flowing trough my body and heart. I could not help but think about the girl I was with today, just wanting to be with her right now. I let go of my penis(was in the middle of masturbation) and enjoy the last bits of rush of sexual energy flowing trough my heart and head as I let mr jiggles rest. I feel soothed by the energies and I'm thinkig... I was starting to love her... Being with this person just flows more and more love trough me, and it always had! Yet, in the past, I experience this energy trough all kinds of mental resisting filters, negative believes, and I felt ill in the stomach, pains in the chest, fear in the heart. Now I just feel more of my self! How great is that! Trying to release resistance in my heart, for sexual juices to flow up, I suddenly had a big synchronistic experience. The neighbours suddenly turned up the volume while I was doong my sponteneous, i call it, "love energy transmitation" practice. I received this shock that you feel when someone scares you, or jumps at you from behind. Your heart rate increases and you feel "fear". But... I was so into "allowing" mode. You know what I fell? You guessed it right? Love, love love! Aaahh... How can I begin to describe? My body feels as light as a feather. Just one big lub dub from the heart followed by a rush of unconditional love. First directed towards the girl I loved and slowly towards all things around me as I began to release all mental resistance bit by bit. I realized, I loved her no matter what, without condition. Even if the condition would be that she hated me. I would be able to lift the weight of the universe just for this person, even if she did hate me and lived 5 bilion light years away. That is how powerful unconditional love feels. I transform what seems heavy into the feathers by playing with it trough loving it unconditionally. Every single thing around me. All resistance just melts and I use her as my permission slip to allow my more of my natural self to flow trough me. I Slept, dreamed and woke up with the apifiny. I realized that I was using this person I love the most, no matter how she looks and whatever mood she is in(unconditional) as my permission slip to allow unconditional love to flow trough me. Thats the apifiny, hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it Don't try to be love, just because I said you are love. You are already it! xD Sexual transmutation is a great way to practice more allowance, yet a dangerous method to practice resistance. Keep that in mind. If sexual practice is so powerfull, imagine what love can do to you when you flow it trough negative believe systems. You ever heard the stories about blind love gone wrong? Thats like the blinding light of the heavens Edited June 2, 2012 by Everything Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aaron Posted June 2, 2012 Although there is nothing wrong with masturbation (you really don't want to get me started on that topic) it's also important not to mistake lust for love. Yes sex can and often does have a love component, but it can also just be sex. You see a cute girl you don't know, you don't love them, but you are attracted to them. In this sense realize that you can enjoy sex and not have it be about love and nothing is wrong with that, but in the same way, having sex within someone you deeply care about can be one of the most satisfying experiences in your life. Also remember to give Mr. Jiggles a rest now and again. There's more to life than sex. Enjoy it, but don't let it cloud all the other beautiful things the universe has to offer. Aaron Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Informer Posted June 2, 2012 I don't know if "you" are love or if it is your love, but love is a part of us all. It is one of those subjective experiences, that when someone questions it, no matter what they say, you know the truth yourself. Even if you can't prove it objectively, it is present within you. Thing is you can feel that same thing towards everyone, without making it anything special for anyone in particular if you know what I mean? I would suggest not to mix love up with sexual pleasure. Love is not dependent on sex or sexual desires, or lust if you will. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Everything Posted June 2, 2012 (edited) Hey guys, thanks for the feedback! Let me crystal clear my theory for ya guys When I speak about love, I'm talking about everything, All that is, our true natural selves, the core of our beings, the light that we are. Yet, I think it is useful to make the distinction, especially if there is a request for it. Because afterall, even though everything is love and light, we are here experiencing distinction, based on our judgements. It is my intention to bring these judgements under the light of our love, hows that for an exchange, huh? Sex - Permission slip to practice/allowance of love energy(non-ejaculatory) trough sex. Where limitted degrees is allowed in, bit by bit at a comfortable rate. Building up as you go. This is still a very very powerful way to go and it is suggested you let go of allot of negative believe systems prior to initiating this practice. Practicing resistance will result in ejaculation, for your own safety, because you might not be ready to hold on to the amounts of energies. It all depends on how much mental resistance you hold within your mind. Love - Permission slip or concept to practice/allowance of love energy. Still limitted, but this energy will skyrocket your body into new experiences. It will rise even the tiniest of negative speck of a believe to the surface of your consciousness. This is where people face all kinds of trouble when they practice resistance, holding on to negative believe systems. E.g. angry boyfriends or ex-boyfriends. Facing your fears, or facing your feeling of self-worth. Practicing more allowance of the feeling of self-worthiness. Cause often, you get rejected. Unless if you're in love with your self, never heard about that one on these levels though ^^ Unconditional Love with All that is - practice/allowance of non-conditional love energy. This is where you begin to have conversations with infinite intelligence, connect to All that is. This is where our true natural self is being allowed fully in. We know what we need to know when we need to know, synchronisity abounds. Reality becomes fluid, you play with everything around you like clay and transform it effortlessly. Where miracle is reality. Most of all, you know your self worth and project that unto others automaticly. There is no more forgiving, only the pure unconditional love itself for ALL THAT IS The emotions differ, because the limits of the believe systems differ. The resistance to the same energy to diffrent degrees is what created the distinction between these practices/allowances. Because you're allowing diffrent things at diffrent times, based on your current believe systems! It is true that most of the people who rush them selves into things and still have allot of negative believe systems, unconsciously, while initiating the sexual practice/allowance of non-ejaculatory whole body orgasms, they will carry the burden of facing allot of them all at ones, as your increase in frequency will make these heavy bagage just float to the surface of your consciousness for your observance and letting go of it or face the consequences of not doing so. Holding on to negative believe systems and yet practice with sexual transumation I call that the practice of resistance of sex-energy. It is very destructive. And it is good of you guys to bring it up. Yet, there is not much to worry. There is a built in safety device. Sooner or later, the person will have strong urges to ejaculate and end the whole experience for himself in that very instant. I have just started my sexual practice a week ago, and its going smooth as heaven! I have been practicing it trough masterbathing, thats what I call masturbation in the bathtub. Cause the first time I did it totally wrong, and I took bath to sooth my blue balls, haha Check my previous topic for that pain in the nut. I'll be ready to practice with a partner soon. Its pretty easy, if you know how to relax and allow. There is really no problem in recognizing when you are holding too much tension out of pure habbit of ejaculation. I was past lust when I got my first love dream at the age of 6 years old Now I'm having unconditional love dreams... If you know what I mean Edited June 2, 2012 by Everything Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jeff Posted June 2, 2012 Great topic and points. Just be careful as you practice with another person. As you both open and the energy/love expands between the two of you, it increases the rate of coming upon deeper issues/obstructions. Shared space is an infinitely beautiful thing, but there can be a lot of bumps along the road as you move deeper than sexual fun. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aaron Posted June 3, 2012 I would warn against the idea of unconditional love. I don't think it exists, since it's very much an emotional response to stimulus. Compassion exists and one can practice compassion, but even then it always has a condition. The easiest way to blind ourselves is to believe that we can overcome conditions within this existence, since even our ability to breathe is reliant upon a condition. The only way you could have unconditional love is if you existed in an unconditional world. Aaron Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Apech Posted June 3, 2012 I would warn against the idea of unconditional love. I don't think it exists, since it's very much an emotional response to stimulus. Compassion exists and one can practice compassion, but even then it always has a condition. The easiest way to blind ourselves is to believe that we can overcome conditions within this existence, since even our ability to breathe is reliant upon a condition. The only way you could have unconditional love is if you existed in an unconditional world. Aaron "Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds." Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Everything Posted June 3, 2012 (edited) "Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds." I got curious what that means. Never heard of it before What do you mean with "when it alteration finds" ? Is that like "when it finds alteration" ? Edited June 3, 2012 by Everything Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
三江源 Posted June 4, 2012 SONNET 116 Let me not to the marriage of true minds Admit impediments. Love is not love Which alters when it alteration finds, Or bends with the remover to remove: O no! it is an ever-fixed mark That looks on tempests and is never shaken; It is the star to every wandering bark, Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks Within his bending sickle's compass come: Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, But bears it out even to the edge of doom. If this be error and upon me proved, I never writ, nor no man ever loved. William Shakespeare 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
