new to the path of Tao

[xjmx]

hi all-

 

i have only just been reading these forums for a few weeks. i am finding a lot of new information, while some other aspects of this practice/study closely seem to relate to those of my study of yoga.

 

i have been studying Iyengar yoga for a few years. i feel that has been an extraordinary pursuit, one that has changed me for the better in many ways. i have become more in tune with myself, my posture has strengthened, as has my own emotional balance. i plan to continue this practice for the rest of my life.

 

my interest here is in finding ways to also integrate the study of Tao. i was totally unaware of the benefits of using one's sexual energy to aid in all aspects of personal development until recently. i had a basic knowledge that sexual drive was energy, but to use it in a way other than simply to achieve arousal/orgasm is new to me.

 

i must relate to you all something that happened only today. i have been practicing, in conjunction with my asana practice, what i now understand to be the MCO. and i am starting to get a feel for how that works, drawing energy up your chakras/spine. i have also been steadily increasing my rate of conservation over the past few months. this has been a challenge, but i do feel the difference in my physical and mental energy.

 

well, today i had a calm practice. after that practice, i began to feel an intense surge of arousal, relating to interacting with a woman. after this had occurred, I had a shower. the state of arousal continued, and i admit the urge to stimulate myself was intense. there was no fantasy involved. it was in the moment, using the breath to guide the intensity of the sensation upward. and then i experienced what felt like an orgasm, only without an actual release. i didn't actually try to prevent a release, it just didn't get to that point.

 

so.. what happened? what did I actually do?

 

anyways, i will continue reading here. i thought maybe a slightly sensational story was a good way to introduce myself.

[kaaazuo]

Hello,

 

Sounds like you're just having fun with yourself. What has this to do with the Tao?

I am new to the Tao Te Ching also. It's relationship to sexual indulgence is really far out.

What has a Chinese book of wisdom got to do with fornication?

[xjmx]

well i seek the ways of the tao to further my understanding of how best to cultivate the jing, the chi, and the shen. i believe that i have lived a dull inner life without this understanding. i'm not looking for happiness; i seek my true self. and maybe to hold on to my youth for as long as possible

[kaaazuo]

well i seek the ways of the tao to further my understanding of how best to cultivate the jing, the chi, and the shen.

 

Which Chapters of the Tao Te Ching deal with the cultivation of the jing, the chi and the shen?

 

i believe that i have lived a dull inner life without this understanding. i'm not looking for happiness; i seek my true self.

 

No one is looking for happiness; it is misery that we all are trying to block out. If every desirable woman you meet wants to sleep with you, would you bother to learn chi magic?

 

....and maybe to hold on to my youth for as long as possible

 

Chi magic alone will not stop premature aging caused by an unhealthy lifestyle.

The body is vulnerable to disease and death. How is your diet? Are you on medication?