New here too....and have many questions...

[ChiForce]

Hello,

I decided to sign up because maybe it is the time I should seek some clarity about my life experiences. A bit of my background. I am in my lat 30s and lived in USA. When I was 18, I experienced the Chi energy or Kundalini energy rising after I woke up from a dream. I dream that I was a scholar warrior back in the Han dynasty. It seems like in the dream I was circulating the micro-cosmic orbit by jumping up from the bottom of a cliff. Did a twist in the mid air and landing on the ground...while my point of vision or focus was on my navel area. I saw 2 men in front of me. Then, I woke up and the Chi energy was engulfing me all over for 4s. I was HOT and on fire. Blue and whitish lighting intensified on my forehead. When I opened my eyes, I could still see the light. Later, I was told, I was seeing the color of the Chi energy. After this experience, I got interested in meditation, something simple and without any clear ideas what I was doing. However, I could reproduce the micro-comsic orbit within 5 to 10 minutes of meditation, for several weeks. And the Chi energy was always hot but with a very short duration. Before this experience, I went through a process of deep self reflection and analysis, while I was in college and majoring the wrong field. Back then, I have no ideas what was happening to me. I could consistently reproduce the experience until I transferred to another college. Obviously, my chakras were all open and obviously, as you guess it, I began to have dreams about my past life (I think).

I left this college because my spiritual experiences as well as the emergence of my past life seemed to be in conflict with the college's academic agenda (another major life challenge I was facing). I left this college and transferred to another and finally got my degree, which I cared little about. At this point, I tried to put everything behind me and getting a job and to pay my bills. 3 years ago, I got laid off by the company I worked there for a long time. It has been in these 3 years I begin to study in meditation and to further examine what I was experiencing. And trying to understand the implication of my past life and my past life karma. Something I have been dealing with over 10 years.

Only recently I have been reading up the works by William Bodri. I finally have some ideas about my own dharma. Up to the age of 18, I was practicing the Mahayana school of meditation, without knowing it. Although I didn't actively practicing meditation in the traditional sense, I was meditating either in my dreams or in my sleeps. After years of intense mental examination about my life (before I turned 18), I was awakened and initiated into my first samadhi. When the vision of my past life emerged, I was going into another stage of samadhi, which I think I am only now slowly coming to grasp the nature of it, after more than 10 years.

Knowing what I know now about my life, I am finding it hard to set myself a new life's path. I am at lost at the moment because I feel that I know where I want to go but not sure how to get there. Sorry for writing up a very dense post.

[taijistudent]

I can only supply you with the advice that has worked for me and others in my life who were facing problems: Pursue life with diversity and moderation.

Edited March 12, 2013 by taijistudent

[RiverSnake]

Where do you want to go?

[ChiForce]

Where do you want to go?

Good question. I think I want to acclimate more merits and to continue to follow my Dharma. I know I am on my path to enlightenment, and hopefully to experience a greater degree of Samadhi. However, I am not sure what I need to do to actualize my Dharma in this world, in America, in my social surrounding.

[RiverSnake]

So you want your surroundings to mimic your internal pursuits? IME to a certain extent in your own life this will happen automatically and with a certain bit of effort....as we change internally the external will shift as well.....but you cannot change other beings or society at large.

 

My 2 cents, Peace

[ChiDragon]

ChiForce....

You already have enough "chi force" to go on by having the name.

Namaste....!!!

[ChiForce]

So you want your surroundings to mimic your internal pursuits? IME to a certain extent in your own life this will happen automatically and with a certain bit of effort....as we change internally the external will shift as well.....but you cannot change other beings or society at large.

 

My 2 cents, Peace

Sigh....you sound like one has to surrender one's Dharma to the impurity and illusion nature of our world because we are powerless against the cycles and sufferings of Samaras. Ever since I was 18 (I am in my late 30s), I have overcome this world and attained my first Samadhi. Yes, I have many Samadhi to attain. So, it is irrelevant who is trying to change what. I don't need this world. I am not attached to this world. Therefore, I don't need to change it. The question is how do I make use and manifest of my Dharma in this world. A purely existential question. Not necessarily in America, of course.

Edited March 28, 2013 by ChiForce

[ChiForce]

ChiForce....

 

You already have enough "chi force" to go on by having the name.

 

Namaste....!!!

Fellow ATS members... I like this message board since it is very focused in Chi and the Tao. I just have a very magnificent dream this early morning. In this dream, it was like it is telling me my whole life is about to change to something huge. The dream used a huge tall building to manifest the meaning. Then, the building was speaking to me. I just hold on and keep on meditating and cultivating. I am sure I would gain enough mind clarity soon. Yeah, once you have attained certain degree of enlightenment, you don't want to live in darkness and surrounded by people and society who are still living in the dark.

[RiverSnake]

Its seems like your basically asking "How do i walk my Path?" IME thats's a very personal thing and everyone has to find that for themselves. I personally recommend deep contemplation and reflection........writing ones ideas down, picking them apart, analyzing, then reflecting....etc Slowly work towards coming towards the source your own truth.....then pursuing your particular "Vision" wisely but relentlessly.

 

My 2 cents, Peace

[ChiForce]

Its seems like your basically asking "How do i walk my Path?" IME thats's a very personal thing and everyone has to find that for themselves. I personally recommend deep contemplation and reflection........writing ones ideas down, picking them apart, analyzing, then reflecting....etc Slowly work towards coming towards the source your own truth.....then pursuing your particular "Vision" wisely but relentlessly.

 

My 2 cents, Peace

Actually, it is more like trying to see if anyone here shared the same Dharma that I did and what sorts of wisdom and insight one can provide. Perhaps,it may illuminate my path clearly. For one thing, I got the chance to read about William Bodri. Very rewarding reading. His works answered many of my questions. So now, I want to read more about his master. Well, this is a message board discussing the Tao and Buddhist teaching, I would assume I would encounter individuals who shared my Dharma, to some degree.