My journey

[fullset]

Hello fellow members,

 

This is my first post, and I'm afraid it is going to be a long one.

 

First of all, a little bit of my background and then I promise to come to my story/dilemma right now. But before I do that, I have to thank you guys for all your contributions that you have made and will make in the future. I've read two threads on this forum. The first one was a mega thread of 100 day semen retention experience and the other was the path to enlightenment started by dawg.

 

Ok, so now my background.

 

I'm 27 year old living in US. I moved there when I was 15. I am originally from India. As is the culture there, I've always been very interested in meditation as most cultural/mythological stories had accounts of powerful men, kings, warriors, saints etc. gaining their strength and powers from years and years of meditation. I still have to admit that I'm not very good at meditation at all times, but sometimes I do hit the zone where I can go for about 45 minutes.

 

And now my current situation:

 

After moving to US, I lost my way and got addicted to smoking cigarettes, smoked weed, and masturbated to porn once or twice almost every day. I quit porn and masturbation last year for about a 100 days. I did have wet dreams every 10 days or so. Somehow I got back onto porn and went on and off for most of the beginning of this year.

 

But, on May 21 of this year, I quit smoking cigarettes, weed, porn and masturbation. The thing that helped me the most was I started taking cold showers and exercise. A month later I was going kayaking on a lake and I put on sunscreen. Now I've never had skin issues, but I started breaking out. I have had more acne since then than I had my entire life.

 

After this persisted for a while, I started getting a little sad. Now I'm normally an abnormally happy person, but acne was seriously wreaking havoc on my psyche and my confidence. To make matters worse, I put on an acne medication that burnt my skin on my face.

 

To get me out of my funk, I went back to taking hot showers. It helped just a slight bit. I got a little desperate and had to FORCE myself to masturbate. Acne improved a little bit. And now over the last week, I've masturbated to porn every day, taken hot showers, and started smoking as well.

 

One really weird thing that I've noticed is that insects and bugs were really attracted to me. Like how they would be to rotting meat. Again, normally they are not. Ther has been times that I went out camping in the national forest and my friend was getting clobbered with bugs and mosquitoes and insects, and they wouldn't even come close to me and I didn't even have bug spray on! Somehow I was emitting a scent of rotten meat? I don't even know if this makes any sense.

 

Anyhow, I am thinking that something somewhere went horribly wrong. I am blaming sunscreen and EXCLUSIVE cold showering, but more so the sunscreen since I was taking cold showers for the first month without any problems. As a matter of fact, I felt better than I ever had in my life.

 

What do you guys think? I've read somewhere that if you don't know what you're doing, retention can be very harmful. I've been introspecting about this and thinking diligently about what is causing my facial skin to not be healthy when it had been for 27 years and I've ran out of ideas. I'm praying that some of the more experienced, enlightened individuals could help me out.

 

Thanks,

 

Fullset

[Chang]

Hi Fullset and welcome to the Tao Bums. The Lobby is really only for introductions and isn't perused by that many members. For that reason its probably not the best place to get questions answered. It may pay you to post your medical question in the "Off Topic" section.

 

Before you move on please take the time to read the two pinned posts at the top of the Lobby and take a look at the forum terms and rules http://thetaobums.com/topic/19575-forum-terms-rules/ Its just a few things you need to be aware of.

 

Best wishes,

 

Chang

[RiverSnake]

Welcome to the forum. I am glad you found the 100 Day thread useful. I don't know why you still are getting acne at the age of 27....not sure whats up with that, but don't let it fuck with your head dude, its just acne and we all had it when we were younger, give it some time and stay away from all that bullshit acne medication, IMO it's always best to try and do things the natural way: http://m.wikihow.com/Use-Natural-Remedies-to-Treat-Acne

 

Good luck

 

My 2 cents, Peace

[fullset]

Thank you guys for your support.

[Celestial]

Do yourself a favor. Go to the doctor and get a food sensitivity test done. You may be allergic to certain foods. For instance, whenever I eat chocolate I break out in acne.

 

Now you may be thinking, "but I haven't changed my diet in years!" - Well, my friend, as we age our bodies change. I never used to break out after eating chocolate just like I never used to have horrible stomach pains after ingesting food that contains wheat/gluten - but now I do.

 

I always point to diet first because we are what we eat... literally.

Edited August 25, 2013 by Celestial