Hellooo!

[zenguine]

Pleased to make your acquaintance. My name is Isaac.

Before a recent diversion of attention, I had been an unregistered visitor to this site for a while. I had finally come to realize that my modality of faith, which was christianity, was seriously lacking in relevance to my life. I had been dealing with mountains of guilt from my past, with depression, and self hate, isolation, and soul rending loneliness as a result. It had gotten to a point where I was desperate for truth, and if i couldnt find any, I would allow the already growing thoughts of ending my life take over me.
So, at 19 I began a whole lot of digging and reading into actual, verifiable methods of healing, as so many belief systems claim to have. I figured if i could find some good scientific proof, then bam! Theres what i needed to get into. While being raised in a pentecostal environment all my life "healings" were not unheard of though I'd never seen any, or knew anyone who had that kind of experience. And when I tried to research medically verified instances of this, the claims always came short. THEN by a magnificent synchronicity I stumbled across reiki, with wonderful documentation to back it up. Then soon qigong, then of course I found myself here. And here is where my life pretty much changed.

I found myself in the midst of a bunch of wonderful, peaceful, and intelligent people having perfectly cognizant civil discussions about everything I had questions about! How intriguing, I thought, They must be onto something if they poses such sincerity, and peace in their words! So I began following the forums, learning much about The Tao, and I was in love! Absolutely nothing had made as much sense to me before! Life ceased to be a battle, and I saw it for the beauty that it really can be. and on top of that I found out the workings of the body that those in the East had known for so many years, and how balance brings life and healing. Its what I needed to heal all my wounds that hadnt been done TO me, as they didn't exist, but those that I had lead to manifest as a result of my lack of understanding. And the road since has been full of discovery and revelation.

But NOW in my time away getting caught up doing regular dumb teenaged things with my buddies, things have happened and, I've made poor choices that have left me again looking for ways to regain the balance I've gambled away.
Living in a small town I dont have too many options when it comes to friends, and of course they aren't interested at all in Tao, or spirituality but rather cigarettes drugs and alcohol. Of which I partook along with them. As a result I've changed negatively. My body is in disarray, and I've lost the bright light, and the wonderful light I always had. Consequently many brain cells too.
So here I am once again to ask for guidance to regain my health, and ask questions I cant seem to find answers to elsewhere which is why I've decided to sign on up.
I hope to make connections, and become great friends with you all! I could definitely use some folks who are like minded.
Much loveee, Isaac

[Chang]

Hello and welcome to the forum.

 

Most of us have done dumb teenage things with out buddies and many of us also live in small towns. You are not alone.

 

You will now be able to post questions and hopefully will receive no shortage of answers. Before getting started please take the time to read the two posts pinned at the top of the Lobby and also take a look at the forum terms and rules http://thetaobums.com/topic/19575-forum-terms-rules/ This covers all that you need be aware of as things are pretty easy going here.

 

Good luck and best wishes,

 

Chang.

[RiverSnake]

Chi Kung is a great way to maintain and enhance ones health. Welcome to TTB. Enjoy your stay.

 

My 2 cents, Peace

[CloudHands]

Take care