KundaliniLinguini Posted January 18, 2016 I have been meditating for hours per day for 2 years now and there is still the sensation of being an "observer" or "looker" behind the eyes and a ton of tension. The breath does not make it into this tension bubble where the looker resides. I am defeated I have no idea how to dissolve this delusion. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cheshire Cat Posted January 18, 2016 (edited) Could you explain your meditation method? Â With this brief description, everyone here will tell you to focus on the lower dan tian. Edited January 18, 2016 by Cheshire Cat 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
thelerner Posted January 19, 2016 Maybe a more physical solution could help. A few gi gung styles include rubbing the hands together vigorously until they're warm (or hot) then pressing them (bottom of palms) gently but firmly against your closed eyes til the hands cool and the eyes relax.  It feels good. Seems to relieve tension. I find the more 'juice' I have the hotter my hands get. Afterwards there's a general light 'washing the face' movements done with the hands. 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
doc benway Posted January 19, 2016 I have been meditating for hours per day for 2 years now and there is still the sensation of being an "observer" or "looker" behind the eyes and a ton of tension. The breath does not make it into this tension bubble where the looker resides. I am defeated I have no idea how to dissolve this delusion.  The one who wants to dissolve the delusion is the delusion itself. You can't wash blood from your hands with more blood.  Without knowing anything about your system or practice, I would say that there is an opportunity here to let go. Let go of the desire to dissolve the delusion. Let go of the need to be free from the observer. Be aware of the one who has these desires, just notice that tendency, and release it.  Just let everything be exactly as it is - the tension, the looker, the one who wants to get rid of the looker. They are all empty manifestations of energy, let them go and simply rest, and they will gradually weaken. 6 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kar3n Posted January 19, 2016 The one who wants to dissolve the delusion is the delusion itself. You can't wash blood from your hands with more blood.  Without knowing anything about your system or practice, I would say that there is an opportunity here to let go. Let go of the desire to dissolve the delusion. Let go of the need to be free from the observer. Be aware of the one who has these desires, just notice that tendency, and release it.  Just let everything be exactly as it is - the tension, the looker, the one who wants to get rid of the looker. They are all empty manifestations of energy, let them go and simply rest, and they will gradually weaken. Profound! Love this. Thank you, Steve. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
KundaliniLinguini Posted January 20, 2016 Thank you. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
monktastic Posted February 9, 2016 You correctly describe it as the sensation of being an observer. The mind then infers that it's a subject of some kind. What I've found useful is instead of trying to dissolve it, recognize it for what it is: just another object with no special significance. Over time, perhaps the search for an observer will stop turning it up as a viable candidate.... 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Seeker of Wisdom Posted February 9, 2016 You correctly describe it as the sensation of being an observer. The mind then infers that it's a subject of some kind. What I've found useful is instead of trying to dissolve it, recognize it for what it is: just another object with no special significance. Over time, perhaps the search for an observer will stop turning it up as a viable candidate.... Yes! You hit the nail on the head.  KL, if you're aware of something, it's just another experience, not self or self's. A self apart from experience makes no sense either. Therefore... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
already Posted February 10, 2016 No need to bend mind. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
allinone Posted February 17, 2016 self will be always there. Even tractor has its own feeling, it goes back all the way into your body and you could meditate on it then as pure signal or consciousness. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites