Limahong Posted May 21, 2017 Hi Sub, It sure is nice to read these in your post: (i) Going to concert with Dad (ii) Tears, tears, tears … I am somewhat unaccustomed to tears too. I am socially conditioned that guys don’t cry in public. But this seems to have changed after walking out of my depression. I cry more in private and I find emotional release. I have started to chant Buddhist sutras since February this year (e.g. The Great Compassion and Heart sutras). I am OK when I sounded loud and macho; but I break down when my chanting turns soft and I cannot carry on. But lately I seem to have touched base positively with the yin (feminine) aspects of myself when I cried openly whilst chanting alone. Now I can chant softer in groups with dry eyes. Have noted your tears at the concert – an association of tears with music? A pull at the heart strings? Actually I am not too hung up with tears. Why? I had 21/2 years of military life as a National Serviceman. Then this was drilled into me - “it is not for me to ask why but to do and die” when charging with a rifle. I bite that drill ‘hook, line and sinker’. Why? How can I defend my family/country in tears but blood? Ladies please try and understand why some guys are such bloody fools. Sub – I have never doubted the silence from you as something less than positive. Why? Because you had experienced momentarily the marriage of peace and silence on 10 May 2017 whilst looking at the moon. Please do not neglect your medication for the time being. Be patient. But develop the sensitivity to address/arrest depression when you start to feel under the weather. How? Very easy. Count your blessings e.g. you have Dad to go to concerts with (I do have this blessing any more). Brother – I believe in you. - LimA 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 21, 2017 (edited) Sub - you sure are OK. Why? SUCH A PROMPT RESPONSE. Time for me to sleep. It is now 3+am in Singapore. - LimA Edited May 21, 2017 by Limahong Correct typo error. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 25, 2017 Hi Sub, You started this thread on 26 April 2017 and tomorrow it will be a month old. In some cultures, including mine, observatory celebrations are in order especially when it comes to new babies. Are you a new reborn baby in some sense? If so, congratulations! - LimA 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sublimation Posted May 26, 2017 Hello Lima! I actually really feel a lot better than one month ago. I started going running 3 times a week, doing Qi Gong in the morning and focusing on visualizing the things I want to have in my life. I watched the movie "The Secret" and though some content is too esoteric for me, I liked the idea of thinking what I want in my life instead of concentrating what I don't want. I don't feel depressed that often anymore, and if so, I make myself clear and realiize that good times will come eventually. I value myself as a person more and I focus a lot more on my own than on the outside, because I realized that I have to change some things in my life to help other people in the futre. Thanks for you kind words Lima 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Marblehead Posted May 26, 2017 It's amazing what hanging out with positive thinking people can do for us, isn't it? 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sublimation Posted May 26, 2017 1 hour ago, Marblehead said: It's amazing what hanging out with positive thinking people can do for us, isn't it? It is true. I guess I forgot how important it is to build a stable self that is focused on itself first and not bothered by the outside too much, because if something has to change it is me first to get everything going. 4 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 22 minutes ago, Sublimation said: It is true. I guess I forgot how important it is to build a stable self that is focused on itself first and not bothered by the outside too much, because if something has to change it is me first to get everything going. Please read this back to yourself out loud, several times. What you have written here is quite significant and wonderful, my friend. 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brain ( for a change) You are a very wise naughty boy! Are you Swedish (bright blue + yellow)? - LimA 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 2 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brain ( for a change) You are a very wise naughty boy! Are you Swedish (bright blue + yellow)? - LimA Thank you. The verse is from The Lord of the Rings -- Tom Bombadil is the character. My mother's mother was from Norway. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian So you have maternal Scandinavian blood. How about your father's father? - LimA Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 4 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brian So you have maternal Scandinavian blood. How about your father's father? - LimA Mutt. A mixture of Scots-Irish, German, Cherokee and I don't know what else. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 Father's mother was mostly of German descent, mother's father immigrated from England and there are obvious Northern influences in that bloodline, too. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian, Your bloodline is going global? Good for you. All men are brothers. All women? - LimA 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 13 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brian, Your bloodline is going global? Good for you. All men are brothers. All women? - LimA We are. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Marblehead Posted May 26, 2017 59 minutes ago, Limahong said: All women? - LimA Potential lovers for all brothers. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Marblehead, Trust you to bite my bait. Brian is naughty but wise. He kept his silence and peace. But you are a trouble maker. All women? Sisters of course, You have no feelings. But of course - you walk around as a over-sized pebble, humming: Stoney, happy all the time. Stoney, like the summertime. The joy you find in living everyday. Stoney, how I love your simple ways. Ladies just leave that boulder alone. He likes to rock the boat and blast everything to pieces. But good to use him as a stepping stone to peace. Peace sisters peace! - LimA 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 (edited) Hi Sub, You appear upbeat. Keep it up! Maybe you would like to date the moon again tonight. She will be nicely rounded and full (don't stray). Strengthen your moment of silence and peace. Proud of you, brother. - LimA Edited May 26, 2017 by Limahong Correct typo error. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian, What is mutt? Men's butts? - LimA Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 2 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brian, What is mutt? Men's butts? - LimA A mongrel, a dog of uncertain ancestry. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian, Thank you. What's a cat of uncertain ancestry? - LimA Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 11 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brian, Thank you. What's a cat of uncertain ancestry? - LimA According to Wikipedia: "Cats of unrecorded, mixed ancestry are referred to as domestic short-haired or domestic long-haired cats, by coat type, or commonly as random-bred, moggies (chiefly British), or (using terms borrowed from dog breeding) mongrels or mutt-cats." Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian, You are brainy, you take the Wikipedia path. I have recently met a cat of dubious origin. He is a 'qicat'. It is approaching 3am in Singapore. Time to put my head on my pillow. Meow, - LimA Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Brian Posted May 26, 2017 7 minutes ago, Limahong said: Hi Brian, You are brainy, you take the Wikipedia path. I have recently met a cat of dubious origin. He is a 'qicat'. It is approaching 3am in Singapore. Time to put my head on my pillow. Meow, - LimA She. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 Hi Brian, My goodness. Will pray before I sleep. Will sleep with a mutt smile to keep anything 'feline' away. Peace sister peace. Meow - LimA Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 26, 2017 (edited) Hi Sub, Happy One Month! In my traditional domain, one month old babies are celebrated with red-dyed hard boiled eggs, among other goodies. Keep the shells on before dying; but please remove them before eating. But if you culture is shilly-shally about egg shells, then eat your red eggs accordingly. Thank you for your courage to start this thread; and your courage to bite the bullet. You have shown us that we can take ownership of our own problems, no matter what. Trust everyone reading your thread is encouraged to do likewise, depression-wise ... and be wise. Everything is all about the MIND, depression included. March on brother! - LimA Edited May 26, 2017 by Limahong Correct typo error. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites