Ender Posted May 21, 2017 Hello all, I'm new here. I find it interesting how I discovered this community. I found a link to this forum on a website about MMO's, but I get a strong sense that's not what I'm here for. I've been looking for some spiritual peers who I can share my experiences with and who I can learn from. I live in a very secular world where I struggle to share my spituality with those around me. Finding this forum was a stroke of synchronicity that I am very grateful for. Recently, my kundalinis have taken off and I believe She has guided me here (I literally have no one in my life I can share this breakthrough with). About a month ago, I have been taken by the archetype of the Phoenix, the cycle of death and rebirth being a constant theme in my life. I've survived multiple suicide attempts in addition to several accounts of running away to a new city to become a "new" person (it took me until this current rebirth to realize the "run away" method doesn't work). I could fill a closet with the ego outfits I've created, and I'm finally getting rid of them. In the past 3 months, I've shed most of my addictions, I've quit drinking and drugs. I deleted my porn collection and stopped hooking up. I've also quit playing all video games and made a dent in my binge eating (this is the one I am currently shedding). Most importantly, I ended a rather abusive relationship and for the first time in my life, I am truly alone (I know many find alone to be negative, but I couldn't be happier. It has given me the space to discover myself). Each day I celebrate victory after victory in my war against addiction and the ego that fueled them. My spirit lifts me like the fiery wings of the Phoenix, rising me higher and higher. I am constantly seeing myself grow and evolve, and I beam with pride at each turn. And when I feel myself slip into old habits, I don't punish myself like I used to. I recognize my shortcomings as a chance to learn and refocus. I am truly blessed for all the spiritual guidance I've received and hope I can share as much with you as I plan on learning from you. 4 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Marblehead Posted May 21, 2017 (edited) Hello Ender, and welcome. Your membership is approved and we're happy you found your way to us. We look forward to accompanying you on some of the way that you still have to go. Please take the time to read the post pinned at the top of this Welcome page and take a look at the forum terms and rules. This covers all you need to know when getting started. For the first week you will be restricted to ten posts per day but after that you can post as much as you like. Also, until you’ve posted fifteen times in the forums, you’ll be a “Junior Bum” with somewhat restricted access and will be allowed only two private messages per day. Good luck in your pursuits and best wishes to you, Marblehead and the TDB team Hi Ender, Sounds like you have found a place where you should feel very comfortable. I agree, being alone gives us the opportunity to see our true nature. You are welcome to jump right in ongoing discussions, revive an older thread, start a new thread of your own, or start a discussion in the "Newcomer Corner" sub-forms to expand on your introduction or ask general questions to help you get started. May you enjoy your time here. Marblehead Edited May 21, 2017 by Marblehead 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Ender Posted May 21, 2017 Thank you for the welcome. I only see one post that is pinned in this section (one account let person) what is the other post I should read? 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Marblehead Posted May 21, 2017 12 minutes ago, Ender said: Thank you for the welcome. I only see one post that is pinned in this section (one account let person) what is the other post I should read? That surprised me. It has been a long time since I looked at the thread. Second post has gone with the wind. Pretty much, if you comply with the one post you will be fine. I'll check with Admin and find out what happened. Thanks for pointing that out to me. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AussieTrees Posted May 21, 2017 Welcome Ender,best wishes. 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RiverSnake Posted May 21, 2017 You've had quite the path so far. Congratulations on your victories. Welcome to TDB. 3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Limahong Posted May 21, 2017 Hi Ender, I am moved by the experiential dimensions in your introduction and your honesty. I can identify with your experiences but perhaps not with the same words. Nonetheless a rose by any other name is still a rose. It appears that you are on the path to rescue yourself to claim your original self. Take heart – a voyage on your path is strewn with hardship and pain; but you are a toughie. “You've had quite the path so far. Congratulations on your victories” – OldSaint. It is good that you are comfortable being alone – “being alone gives us the opportunity to see our true nature” (Marblehead). March on Ender - you will be home soon to your rightful nest as a freed bird. - LimA 3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cheya Posted May 21, 2017 Welcome Ender! Glad you found us! 3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
