Not Attacking

[allinone]

As it is attacking, but not bursting. If i go into rampart i lose and need start over.

What i need to xp is the pulse or beat. It also occurs between upper and lower center, its rare but it beats. When the pulse is fast and dry, i will need notice it and make it wet normal(as the pumping will feel productive and good humid).

Also the sensation of new idea or insight, is new breath or new coming, or hope. Also the opposite of being lethargic or dull, under pressure, heavy, weak etc sensations.

If i ask help it is just a connection to that type of sensation and functions.

 

These things somehow all connected to everyday life events and all sorts of other appearances.

[allinone]

Other topic or area of interest is gases and breath and pain like sensations in belly. As from both holes from mouth and from ass.

 

Sometimes i need eat so much to get a full stomach feeling and that is not enough yet, it will be enough when i start feeling sick as these types of sensations are what do the work and get me to next area.

 

 

[roger]

A Course in Miracles says that as long as one 'attacks', they will not and cannot awaken.

 

Attack can, and in the majority of cases does, take very subtle forms. One may not even be aware that they have, or have been, attacked.

 

Not all attacks are equally unloving or 'bad', of course, but imo it's always unwise to attack.

 

I think attack is an absolute, in the sense that a choice is either attack, or it is not.

 

Attack is in its nature hypocritical, in that the attacker claims to be justified. It's done in the guise of virtue or self-love. It's self-righteous.

 

Attack usually passes as strength, courage, and power. ACIM says this is an example of 'upside-down perception'.

 

Pride seems to be the problem. A guy named Howard Storm had an NDE, and in his book about it, said, 'Pride is the source of all sin.'

 

Both arrogance and humility are far more a matter of how one treats others than they are of how one feels about themselves. Attack is the epitome of arrogance and the antithesis of humility.

Edited August 10, 2017 by roger

[allinone]

11 hours ago, roger said:

A Course in Miracles says that as long as one 'attacks', they will not and cannot awaken.

 

Attack can, and in the majority of cases does, take very subtle forms. One may not even be aware that they have, or have been, attacked.

 

Not all attacks are equally unloving or 'bad', of course, but imo it's always unwise to attack.

 

I think attack is an absolute, in the sense that a choice is either attack, or it is not.

 

Attack is in its nature hypocritical, in that the attacker claims to be justified. It's done in the guise of virtue or self-love. It's self-righteous.

 

Attack usually passes as strength, courage, and power. ACIM says this is an example of 'upside-down perception'.

 

Pride seems to be the problem. A guy named Howard Storm had an NDE, and in his book about it, said, 'Pride is the source of all sin.'

 

Both arrogance and humility are far more a matter of how one treats others than they are of how one feels about themselves. Attack is the epitome of arrogance and the antithesis of humility.

 

Okay fine, but what you said is an ultimatum. That is required to wind things up in me, so i can train forbearance or whatever.

 

you are useful, but i needed like 11 hours to finally reach that conclusion. You are lucky because say the same thing to someone who have no patience to cultivate your vulgarity.

[allinone]

Went outside to do heavy work. Then when heart was beating so fast, i took notice of it, it cleared my mind as i felt satisfactory as after attacking people verbally.

 

Life gets easier if to know sameness. That X thing gets the same thing than Y but X is much better, i save time for other activities or just chilling.

 

Also i noticed intense heat, and i just be with it till i notice cold in that. So yang inside yin. That means within attacking there is solution.

[Marblehead]

17 minutes ago, allinone said:

Also i noticed intense heat, and i just be with it till i notice cold in that. So yang inside yin. That means within attacking there is solution.

Well, sure, there are times when the best thing to do is attack if we have allowed our self to get into a compromised situation.  But knowing what brings on the heat we can avoid nearly all future experiences by being aware of the heat beginning to rise.

 

Doing this will moderate our inner essence and thereby allow more inner harmony instead of the constant fluctuations of heat and cold, yang and yin.

 

[allinone]

10 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

Well, sure, there are times when the best thing to do is attack if we have allowed our self to get into a compromised situation.  But knowing what brings on the heat we can avoid nearly all future experiences by being aware of the heat beginning to rise.

 

Doing this will moderate our inner essence and thereby allow more inner harmony instead of the constant fluctuations of heat and cold, yang and yin.

 

 

Seem to me these times are pretty often. Its free experience. And my dream consciousness(that amoral, urges based substance)

is doing great, i am not even feeling like getting banned. So i can loosen up again and be more me.

 

The heat mostly i keep it in using it to cultivate to the brink and then there is little trigger needed.

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i think it is quite clear that i am not looking for to stop attacking but to get better at it, so that a very little wrong thing can trigger me.

**yes me me, its intimidating. Intimate dating.

[roger]

allinone,

 

Listen man, you've attacked me in nearly every post you've addressed me.

 

I'm neither hurt nor offended.

 

Get real, be honest with yourself. The spiritual path isn't a big joke. It's a sacred and very serious thing.

 

Rethink your life, your path, and your values.

 

You matter, as everyone does. The price one pays for unloving behavior is truly extreme. It's not punishment. It's what's best for everyone.

 

Be a man, not a cowardly little boy.

[allinone]

1 hour ago, roger said:

allinone,

 

Listen man, you've attacked me in nearly every post you've addressed me.

 

I'm neither hurt nor offended.

 

Get real, be honest with yourself. The spiritual path isn't a big joke. It's a sacred and very serious thing.

 

Rethink your life, your path, and your values.

 

You matter, as everyone does. The price one pays for unloving behavior is truly extreme. It's not punishment. It's what's best for everyone.

 

Be a man, not a cowardly little boy.

 

i just in case ask are you cry'ing?

 

be honest pls

[Marblehead]

8 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

i just in case ask are you cry'ing?

 

be honest pls

If I were Roger I would likely piss in your eye.

 

[allinone]

1 minute ago, Marblehead said:

If I were Roger I would likely piss in your eye.

 

 

piss is a good antibacterial substance. So dunno what you mean..

[Marblehead]

2 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

piss is a good antibacterial substance. So dunno what you mean..

Oh, you know what I mean.

 

 

[allinone]

Just now, Marblehead said:

Oh, you know what I mean.

 

 

 

so you meant like Oh! you knew what i meant, good boy!

[Marblehead]

1 minute ago, allinone said:

 

so you meant like Oh! you knew what i meant, good boy!

Good boy your ass.  

 

Roger is a very tolerant person.  If he feels you have been attacking him then there still exists a problem with your communicating with others.

 

Breathe.  Relax.  Empty your mind.  Be at peace with your self so that you can be at peace with others.

 

 

[allinone]

1 minute ago, Marblehead said:

Good boy your ass.  

 

Roger is a very tolerant person.  If he feels you have been attacking him then there still exists a problem with your communicating with others.

 

Breathe.  Relax.  Empty your mind.  Be at peace with your self so that you can be at peace with others.

 

 

 

i read sensations, i use eyes to dig in and find that special what works like a charm, peeps jumping on me thinking i am a negative person.

 

This is what i am born to do. Its my calling. So you guys coming to suppress that, then prepare to be challenged, i will nitpick you into XOXOXOX

[Marblehead]

46 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

i read sensations, i use eyes to dig in and find that special what works like a charm, peeps jumping on me thinking i am a negative person.

 

This is what i am born to do. Its my calling. So you guys coming to suppress that, then prepare to be challenged, i will nitpick you into XOXOXOX

You give your self far more credit than you have earned.  Sure, you may have irritated some of our more sensitive members here but what did you gain by doing that?  Not a damn thing.  Your ego is already on drugs and totally out of control.

 

I think you have misread your calling.  All you will ever do by doing that is lose friends and put off potential friends.

 

Your posture is none other than someone who has been severely hurt and you think you have found a way to prevent being hurt again.  This will work.  No one will ever want to get close enough to you to be able to hurt you.

 

If what I am suggesting is true, there are much better ways of defending your self.

Edited August 11, 2017 by Marblehead

[allinone]

1 hour ago, Marblehead said:

You give your self far more credit than you have earned.  Sure, you may have irritated some of our more sensitive members here but what did you gain by doing that?  Not a damn thing.  Your ego is already on drugs and totally out of control.

 

I think you have misread your calling.  All you will ever do by doing that is lose friends and put off potential friends.

 

Your posture is none other than someone who has been severely hurt and you think you have found a way to prevent being hurt again.  This will work.  No one will ever want to get close enough to you to be able to hurt you.

 

If what I am suggesting is true, there are much better ways of defending your self.

 

edit actually. I let you guys win..enjoy.

Edited August 11, 2017 by allinone

[Marblehead]

15 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

edit actually. I let you guys win..enjoy.

Winning was never a consideration.  The only way I lose is if you go off the wall and get banned.

 

You enjoy too.

 

[allinone]

2 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

Winning was never a consideration.  The only way I lose is if you go off the wall and get banned.

 

You enjoy too.

 

 

i think i don't have to attack anymore, i know have said it before but i think i can call that sensation into my forehead, so no trigger. I already not-burst couple last time.

the trigger not work anymore, it is too much revealed, i poked it out.

Even if there is that same urge that is too weak and the play will look artificial. But will see. I haven't got out of hand today, nor yesterday...

[9th]

No point.

 

No match.

[Nungali]

10 hours ago, allinone said:

 

i think i don't have to attack anymore, i know have said it before but i think i can call that sensation into my forehead, so no trigger. I already not-burst couple last time.

the trigger not work anymore, it is too much revealed, i poked it out.

Even if there is that same urge that is too weak and the play will look artificial. But will see. I haven't got out of hand today, nor yesterday...

 

 

tomorrow is here

[allinone]

4 hours ago, Nungali said:

 

 

tomorrow is here

 

My bloodlust got activated already few moments ago reading just few lines today.

 

this just makes me sorrowful. Not the bloodlust state, but inability to do anything about it and that makes this state a pleasure to be.

So i now just wait and see what will happen.

[allinone]

you guys think you can avoid bloodlust? maybe understand that what wakes you up is fear. Simple example is an alarm clock it will startle you wake up.

 

Awareness is fear,  cultivate it to become more sensitiive to fear. Going to sleep, its when you are tired, you can't stay up anymore, you try your best but still you fall asleep and can't do nothing about it even if falling asleep means your death.

 

So if you practice discipline of not getting attached to activities that means your awareness isn't sucked into chest by the activity but you are aware of the boredom of the activity because you aren't attached to it and it is tiring it will make you suffer and mental you want to quit practice and do what you like, but the thing yo like is what such you into chest and sleep.

[Marblehead]

9 minutes ago, allinone said:

you guys think you can avoid bloodlust? maybe understand that what wakes you up is fear. Simple example is an alarm clock it will startle you wake up.

Ah!, that word/concept I speak to often - fear.  Understanding reduces fear.  Yes, fear may cause a person to kill.  Because we didn't understand it we killed it.

 

9 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

Awareness is fear,  cultivate it to become more sensitiive to fear. Going to sleep, its when you are tired, you can't stay up anymore, you try your best but still you fall asleep and can't do nothing about it even if falling asleep means your death.

I disagree.  Awareness reduces fear.  The only thing that needs die while we still live is the thought of permanence.  If we accept the truth that we are not ever-lasting we will have already gone beyond death and therefore we will have removed our fear of death.

 

9 minutes ago, allinone said:

 

So if you practice discipline of not getting attached to activities that means your awareness isn't sucked into chest by the activity but you are aware of the boredom of the activity because you aren't attached to it and it is tiring it will make you suffer and mental you want to quit practice and do what you like, but the thing yo like is what such you into chest and sleep.

Not much I can say here.  Discipline, awareness, attachments, practice; all important concepts.  Most important to me is "true" awareness.  This means understanding of reality, especially understanding the reality of who/what we are and what major events brought us to where we are now.

 

[allinone]

2 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

Ah!, that word/concept I speak to often - fear.  Understanding reduces fear.  Yes, fear may cause a person to kill.  Because we didn't understand it we killed it.

 

there is a black hole or black celestial body. And even a little vibration towards it is triggering. And the energy or the power released perhaps its what wakes you up and you will live off that energy till you fall asleep again.

 

3 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

I disagree.  Awareness reduces fear.  The only thing that needs die while we still live is the thought of permanence.  If we accept the truth that we are not ever-lasting we will have already gone beyond death and therefore we will have removed our fear of death.

 

and right now i reach to next point, but what i was thinking of writing would have gotten me ban i think but no bad words included (but its gore enough like too pornographic) as also the intent i think killed me.

so i know i can't also avoid that state, got new understanding to it, now i need also wait the review state.

 

8 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

Not much I can say here.  Discipline, awareness, attachments, practice; all important concepts.  Most important to me is "true" awareness.  This means understanding of reality, especially understanding the reality of who/what we are and what major events brought us to where we are now.

 

its basically i go through the states and try to describe them, i don't guess, i just lack xp to describe things more precise so technically i lie all the time and cause harm with my activity.

also i don't mention all the things i know due greed.