Seriously Need some Help

[WadeGarret]

I have been telling the story repeatedly on various forums and hopes to get help but sadly have not been able to get much information. I get commentary once in awhile but that's about it. Sometimes a little bit of scoffing.

 

 

First of all I just want to say I am agnostic, I believe in a Creator and that there is some type of intelligence or God that looks out after us and I have experienced it. However that being said, I have been going through a lot of what some might call probable imbalances in the past year or so that I haven't really figured out.

I've only read that energy and hair length coincide on a spiritual level from Indian philosophy not so much Qui-Gon. Everything I say in this story is true and not fabricated.
 
 3 years ago I begin to meditate heavily, roughly 2 hours every morning for about 6 months. In that time I was growing my hair long. Hair became down to shoulder length. Occasionally visualize something like in my mind that I wanted but not much came from that sort of practice. With the two hours of meditation every morning I became very disassociated and begin to will a barrier between me and the general population that seem to only be mitigated by going near open areas.
 
 Going to the ocean, going to an abandoned Park, hiking trail 2 miles on the outskirts of society. Eventually two miles turned into 30 miles and then into 40 miles and these trips were becoming a longer and longer. I was a hardcore meditator and was practicing celibacy, I still practice celibacy but in terms of meditation

I remember trying to meditate in an apartment one morning and I could not get into my state. I then found myself compelled to drive 40 miles into the Wilderness inland of California to escape a strange feeling. Everything in me was compelled to be at one with nature. In fact every time I meditated that feeling would hit me immediately within 20 minutes and I would have to be out in the open or in a field and I was becoming increasingly disconnected and disassociated with Society. So I dropped meditation.
 
 I continued celibacy but my hair length through and I still had a Detachment from society. There is an Indian religion and I've only found one page speaks of hair lengths role in energy and how it functions. As my hair was long I was able to pick up a job doing emergency roadside assistance, probably through my own prayer. Interesting Lee at that company there were two men that work there who had long dreadlocks so that probably was a moment of synchronicity.
 
 As for me, every few weeks into celibacy I always had to gather energy from nature. It was a requirement of my body to move on the outskirts of society and absorb energy. I-Ready page about hair and its relation to the spirit and vibrations in a man, and how long hair in a man can produce vibrations of irritability and imbalance if one is not careful and live a very aesthetic life. (Sp) - 
 
 So for about 3 years I got very good at understanding myself with long hair and for three years every two or three weeks I would take a trip on the outskirts of town either by a trail, or down the road by the rocks, or sometimes depending on my thoughts and energy level I would drive way out of town. Meditation also open me up to cosmic energy and I would feel the energy of certain places especially wide open valleys, or certain hiking trails with the trees, almost as if the very piece of nature would be absorbed into my entire being.
 
 There are certain places I can drive right now, and I would feel a lightness of my head, and energy flow through my body and my bones and my mood would change. Nature was forcing me to certain places.
 
 It is true that the hair acts as a covering and protection of the mine on an energetic level. People tend to keep their distance and my gauge is averted to most people in my town I'm assuming based upon hair length. Many people would say this is just false beliefs and putting out there but in truth I have experienced it.
 
 Then I cut my hair.
 
 A week later I was driving down the road and I felt significant waves of energy trying to well let's just say I don't really want to talk about it,. But I cut about two feet length of hair and that really trimmed my aura. I was exposed to everything energetically and I noticed people would approach me more or I felt naked as I drove down the road. I also began to have telepathic experiences over the phone picking up people's energy through the phone. If I sat outside the sunlight in the entire Spear of my aura would expand and things would happen.
 
 I would see the sky turn a very light blue in the sun would begin to radiate very hot. If clouds were there they would melt away and hummingbirds, butterflies, and exotic type things would happen. Certain breathing exercises such as bringing the chi up and expanding out to my crown would cause effects in the environment. This sounds pretty strange and I know people won't believe me, but at times I'd be able to make people leave my area.
 
 See, having thick layers of hair covering my head acted as a covering to the spiritual Aura and energies I was connected to. And I was not ready for everything that happened and really thought I was losing my mind. Sometimes, and this sounds funny and I know people are going to think this is odd, but if I were to meditate or release certain Chi and certain populated areas, these attractive beautiful girls would start to hover around me or be near me. Or synchronicities would happen like, if I pushed hard on my exhaled hard and released Chi out of my crown chakra I would start syncing up with people in a crowd.
 
 Like a man would be walking and then all of a sudden in front of me we would be taking the exact same steps looking at the same places Etc. Different Miracles were happening to at that time, I had distant relatives get in touch with me to reconnect and people that had moved away wanted to be around me all the time but at the same time I was dealing with the world in a strange way constantly feeling the connection to the Divine always opening and closing and I didn't know how to manage it.
 
 All it took was 2 minutes of meditation and that portal would open up again so to speak. Well one day I got tired of dealing with all of it so I decided to just jump right back into meditation and basically everything just started completely over and then I just dropped.

Practicing celibacy, I'm not always celibate I have a girl friend over the past couple years, but all those hours of meditation and the long hair definitely opened up channels I should say, but also quitting alcohol and practicing celibacy, and then living a hermetic Lifestyle by trying to quit the internet really drastically change things last year. Constantly trying to refine myself.

Hair definitely is a factor in the spiritual realm in a sense that, for some reason I had so much sensitivity that when I finally cut my hair it was like cutting down a thick barrier of protection and thus all of the crazy stuff that happened. To this day I couldn't say how it happened, but I know that if I were to go outside in meditate people would feel things but I try I stopped meditating and I don't want that stuff to happen anymore.

, for me to say that I was able to manipulate clouds could either be someone's subjective crazy talk or you would just have to take my word for it. I used to go to this spot I would always walk on a trail and send chi in a Direction. When it was done and trust me, I have done this probably 300 * after discovering it, I nearly fall down because she Rises up to the head correct? After looking I would notice the clouds would be changed or manipulated.

Truly the only thing that has saved me was declaring faith in a Creator and a God to save me and also prayer, and having faith that there is a Creator there. And understanding that whatever gift that I had or went through it's still there and it is still dormant, as I have grown my hair out long again. But because my hair is long I noticed my energy shifts and I am drawn back to the forest and back out on the outskirts of society, but it is not only and not too many people want to be. But the air is an antenna to the divine as it is written if you Google it.

My point in all this? Well I don't really know. I do know that cutting your hair as a man will actually probably sensitize and enhance your Energies. I noticed that my energy was more welcome in public places. Generally I have an anxiety of about five or six in public places around my town. When I cut my hair my anxiety was about 0 or 1 I was more welcome to my energy was more welcome. However I had lost the ability to pick up vibrations from nature after cutting my hair.
 
 My best description is, if a man looks like a tree, he becomes the tree. LOL. What I'm writing is just general help on how to not feel all of these strange ups and downs now that my hair's getting longer I still tend to feel I suppose it would be cheesy or energy not really moving or just feeling very restless.
 
 I remember when my hair was short come up I actually had more energy and felt younger. Literally I was able to run through my town, this was just last year, I grabbed onto one of those shopping cart holders and flipped on it. What the band roach in the Indian philosophy article was true. A man with long hair attracts different energies sometimes it can slow you down. For instance when I was out in the wilderness it took a long time to pick up energy so that I can feel balanced again. But when I come back home it starts. There's many more I can talk about but I think I'll end on that note all feedback is appreciated. Thank you for reading

 

I would also like to add that if I'm on the phone with certain people for too long I start to feel an absorption in the Crown chakra. There is a particular person that I know of who strangely tends to always have bad vibes. After talking to this person for 15 minutes on the phone I absorb a lot of their energy. In the same way that taking a nap in the sun opens up a sort of portal or high energy Ray be being down, like the sun is beaming hot warm to which I can only describe from watching a YouTube video as cosmic energy

  The same may happen when talking to someone on the phone who may or may be in certain vibrational States

 

Any help is appreciated. I do want to say that I did look up all of the symptoms I've experienced and it led me to a website called The Awakening which probably has something to do with a Kundalini Awakening witch probably is one of the most scary things to ever go through.

 

I don't think I'll ever feel normal again but I hope to someday but writing this I just want to be able to relax in public for once and not have to feel everything.

 

[RiverSnake]

I do healing work. PM me if you'd like some adjustment. 

[七星門]

You may want to correspond with Sarah Wreck, she's readily available on FB & IG. She can provide some guidance on head-coverings & their role in protecting receptive people. You may experiment yourself with a turban, a cowl, or a shemagh & gauge the results. 

 

I might cut out the lengthy personal stories & focus on the basics, super sensitive, overwhelmed by impressions, at peace in nature, keeping the hair long seems to act as a buffer...even then not well contained, wat do? 

[Starjumper]

11 minutes ago, 七星門 said:

You may experiment yourself with a turban, a cowl, or a shemagh & gauge the results. 

 

Tin foil hat, not cloth.

[七星門]

3 minutes ago, Starjumper said:

 

Tin foil hat, not cloth.

 

It's not as if metal helmets are a recent development but their use is conspicuously limited to protection from physical attack. Seers are not a recent phenomenon & there are time tested traditional methods for containment that aren't the product of new-ageisms that will only make him look insane & further alienate him from his community. 

[beingnature]

Wadegarret , respect for your determination! I can somehow feel you and experienced very similar things.I also practiced in the forrest for years and hours a day, was on a grain free and rawfood diet, experienced days of bigu and also went through overwhelming states.i think the problem is when you are too open and at the same time not open enough. I remember a time where it was hard to look at people ( it was like i was seeing demons) but then later i kind of looked through that and those demoniv expressions went away. Its really hard to describe. I also remember a time when practicing with friends it was like i took up the emotions and after it i felt like i was wearing an emotion coat but it went away.

 

I think its not easy to find the middle when you are living like a hermit but in society... i am also still trying to figure it out.sometimes heavy grounding food helps, sometimes fasting, or just a pause for one day... maybe you could just try to feel what you need at this time.

 

Not easy to speak about it. If you like you can pn me. Maybe i could also help a little with long distance healing.

[七星門]

While the intentions of the folks offering to muck about with this gentleman are well-intentioned, I might warn against a receptive person permitting such access as it is far too easy to lose oneself in another. 

 

Seriously, talk to Sarah. 

[Starjumper]

16 minutes ago, 七星門 said:

 

It's not as if metal helmets are a recent development but their use is conspicuously limited to protection from physical attack. Seers are not a recent phenomenon & there are time tested traditional methods for containment that aren't the product of new-ageisms that will only make him look insane & further alienate him from his community. 

 

It doesn't need to be a heavy metal helmet.  The fact is that a metal plate is the best way to block external chi, and it can be very thin and light, like foil.  If a person is concerned about such things then they can line the inside of their hats with foil so the clueless will not accuse them of some kind of new age crap.  In fact the term 'tin foil hat' is one that was created by the FBI as a preemptive strike against those who know what's going on.

 

Where I come from we don't shy away from the negative, we embrace it to understand it.  All benefits come with an equal level of burden.

[七星門]

1 minute ago, Starjumper said:

 

It doesn't need to be a heavy metal helmet.  The fact is that a metal plate is the best way to block external chi, and it can be very thin and light, like foil.  If a person is concerned about such things then they can line the inside of their hats with foil so the clueless will not accuse them of some kind of new age crap.  In fact the term 'tin foil hat' is one that was created by the FBI as a preemptive strike against those who know what's going on.

 

Where I come from we don't shy away from the negative, we embrace it to understand it.  All benefits come with an equal level of burden.

 

We'll agree to disagree, but I appreciate you sharing your PoV. 

[Aetherous]

I think it's not beneficial to be so overly sensitive. I would personally recommend just ignoring what effects long hair or short hair has, etc. Focus on more mundane things.

Don't have magical thinking, like believing that it's synchronicity how you end up working with other people who have long hair. What if you worked with someone else who had short hair? Would you just ignore that aspect? The supposed synchronicity is just coincidence, and trying to look deeper into it, like you're doing, is degrading the ability of your mind to have critical thought.

Basically...you seem ungrounded.

I would recommend that you eat more meat, if you aren't having that much of it already. Try to think rationally about things. Get sleep at normal hours.

Sorry if this seems a little offensive...I mean for it to be helpful.

[Marblehead]

14 minutes ago, Aetherous said:

Sorry if this seems a little offensive...I mean for it to be helpful.

Sometimes tough love works wonders.

 

[WadeGarret]

Thanks for the response is everybody. Prayer has gotten me out of the lower regions I guess you could say. Declarative prayer and thankfulness. Coffee has proven more of an energy reducer at this point I think I drink just out of habit. I notice I am more calm if I go without coffee so that is going to be the next take away.

  

The days following a prayer there is a great height and of my senses and it's almost as if my perception has been expanded a couple miles. Only way I can describe it is looking at the clouds it looks as if they are far off.

 

Any of this told to the rational World obviously would put you in the looney bin and that's why I do not share this with anyone no longer. I just go about my business in life. I have found different than use of gaining money by way of I suppose divine intervention, meaning I had to had things sort of hinted to me. For instance before the Bitcoin bubble my mind was overtaken with thoughts of it, namely because I had been praying for income.

  

I now make a small income right down the street from where I live and have investment opportunities all from declarative prayer. So there's no doubt I feel that there is a Divine creator that looks out after us. Okay preaching aside, I also want to mention that the role of pornography.

 

I used to fall prey to that a few times last year and following it is sort of like destroying or spiritual Foundation. I tend to find a month after falling into that Things become very unstable and lots of bad luck. I have sworn to not watch that stuff anymore. That also could be a part of some of the imbalances spiritually and energetically and mentally as well as it tends to in my opinion distort who you are spiritually,  hormonal e, and physically energy states Etc.

 

As I progressed I'm doing a little bit better as long as I do not fall into that that have it I want that. Sorry about the grammar. Caffeine and bad Diet also contribute to physical hormonal imbalances and I'm working on eating better and eventually eliminating caffeine and maybe going vegan just to be a more balanced person. I do eat a lot of bad food by the way so that might be at 2.

 

As far as the supernatural stuff happening well, I pray a lot so I do not haven't seen anything. Stopped meditation and don't think I'll be picking that up anytime soon given the fact that well it seems some channels have been opened. I'm not full on witnessing things as others have stated I do not see spirits or any of that stuff but I have also been praying and don't really let my mind go towards those negative aspects.

 

I can attest that being in the presence of a person that I know who has been Afflicted with something, certain phenomenon had happened that I don't want to delve into.

 

What I do want to touch on, and mainly the reason why I am here, is this crazy phenomenon of feeling the absolute warmth of the sun's radiating waves. Since I have grown my hair longer it does not happen as strongly. And I read in some Hindu texts that the hair does act as sort of a spiritual protection or barrier.

 

But this has something to do with me picking up the vibrations of people through the phone last year, when my hair was short. I remember driving down the road and it felt like everybody's energy was " entering the skull region"

 

I literally wanted to get out of my car and fight the person behind me. Without explanation it was as if I was driven mad. Pulled over and had to calm down. Definitely some things going on there that are in explainable. And it is only through prayer and thankfulness to the Creator or God, as you would say that I am able to move and stand forward and do things in life to this day I'm sure I would probably be in a nut house by now.

 

Back to the topic at hand, and this phenomenon of if I tend to doze off in an app someplace, doesn't matter where I'm at, be at a job or my own backyard, that's when they sons radiating waves begin to emanate down. I once was watching a video on meditation and it spoke about " cosmic energy" which basically comes down from the universe and energizes your mind at cetera.

 

And up until last year I had never experienced that. If I meditate under the sun eventually I could feel that warmth radiating throughout my entire body depending on my mood Etc. 

 

Truth is I got tired of meditation and the effects of it and just wanted to be normal so I stopped completely.

 

I guess my question to whoever is reading this is, if anyone has been here or has experienced these things, what would you say is the explanation for this? The closest I can think of is as a man denies himself, through celibacy, meditation, and it wasn't until I quit alcohol, and then I quit all forms of the internet and basically only read books all day, living a sort of Monk lifestyle, was when it felt like I was passing through to the other side and that's when these things started to happen.

 

I suppose my question to anybody here is what would you say is going on and what would be your explanation of it? Through the grace of God and continual prayer to make myself normal into just have a normal life I think I'm not as sensitive or maybe I don't feel that all the time.

 

I guess my question is what do you guys think is happening or has happened in the past. And what are your words of caution? Another thing to that used to happen thank God it stopped. Is I used to see black dots swirl about. They would be on particular people.

 

I want to say they were on people who were under the influence of substances like maybe marijuana. They were black dots that would appear out of nowhere and swirl around and disappear. At first I thought they were flies or bugs but then realized they weren't actually there.

 

So at this point I know people reading this will say well this man has a mental illness, you are free to think that, but I begin to wonder that people who dabble in meditation or perhaps try to have their third eye open may have been pronounce this. My family has no history of this type of thing never was I on medication and I had only done things to purify myself in a sense, meditation celibacy Etc. Well my point is, after prayer, declarative prayer and thankfulness to the creator of all my life has been getting better slowly but incrementally. I suppose I just question what all that stuff was. And sometimes the things I experience or feel once in awhile.

 

Here's another thing. I went to Arizona to visit family. The week that I left, there was a massive. UFO sighting in the general region where I stay. Which spooked me as well. But it wouldn't surprise me given that well, literally seeing the color of the sky change upon meditation makes me wonder what exactly would be going on.

 

As far as Kundalini and Chi and all of that, I have not really felt or experienced much of that in my body I suppose when I cut my hair short my body became more sensitive and overactive to Chi as I did feel some pretty crazy things. I was about 30 days into my celibacy and I remember walking around the park and my body did feel Electric to the point where it was almost unbearable?

   

So as they say long hair acts as an antenna of sorts I think it also helps keep me somewhat grounded.

 

I also feel quitting caffeine will be a big step in torch calmness of the body.

 

I know a lot of this sounds completely crazy and insane so I thank you for your patience and understanding and responding and please take time. I'm only here for understanding and I do appreciate all responses as this has been probably one of the craziest things I've ever been through. I suppose if I could go back I would never have growing my hair long and I probably would never have meditated but hey that's life right?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[beingnature]

Its not as crazy as you think.intense meditation goes just deeper then most people think.i once read that you actually have to get crazy before you get a saint.i myself went through states that were really intense and quite similar to what you describe.remind yourself that it will not be like that forever! Maybe google samadhi states.

There are others ways to ground yourself. Different foods and activities like cold showers.bathing in salt water is great if you pick up some strange energies and you will also learn to transform them.sometimes it can be good to take a break from meditation and sometimes its better to just go through it.try to trust your instinct and dont grab onto the habits of the last years.