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[Hannes]

What is happening to me? Is a question for which I kind off know the answer already; although I don't know what the answer means.

Let me tell you a what happened to me during the last year; and especially the last month. Maybe some of you can bring clarity, or at least it may provide a nice anecdote.

 

Since September I was getting more and more tired. So tired that by December I was sleeping more than half the day. Ten hours at night and 2 after work in the afternoon. My mood was low and gray. I started to feel hopeless.

During the Christmas break I got the flue so bad I thought I was going to die; but I lived. Still I became even more tired and start getting symptoms of depression.

Half way through February I got a stomach problem so painful that my wife drove me over to the ER. Gastritis was the diagnoses and we were ready to leave until the doctor rushed and said, you need a scan. Your blood calcium level is dangerously high.

So after tests they found a benign tumor on one of my parathyroids. Those are 4 little glands behind the thyroid that regulate calcium level.

 

Now on March 1st I had an operation done by an excellent surgeon and it is true that I felt ten years younger afterwards. Only with the apathy lifted I started to feel anxious and had a couple of panic attacks.

 

Now two weeks later, on a Sunday I went to a small wellnessgathering where a friend of mine (who was my 1st level reiki teacher 4 years ago) apparently opened my hearth. Which in itself was a nice experience.

Now, I started to feel more and more nervous and weird and on the Wednesday after I posted a thread here where I stated I needed something.

Jeff here did some energy work and I started to indeed feel better; but not completely well yet.

link to thread

 

The next week the symptoms returned and with the added stress of financial problems I felt dark thoughts on Tuesday. I thought about killing myself but I couldn't. For I love my wife too much and I know that I will live into my seventies; since as a child I have seen my departure from this world.

 

Now on Thursday I had a kind of nervous breakdown and since my wife didn't know what to do with me she brought me to her shrink she was about to visit. He couldn't let me go, so he instructed me to go to the ER.

I didn't mention to him the spiritual stuff ofcourse, but I told him the dark thoughts.

 

Now, after a night at the ER they put me in observation. Since I don't have any symptoms of depression or any other disorder; the doctors were puzzled until they got my bloodtests back. Grace be given, they did a thyroid test.

Apparently I have a thyroid issue. Only, my thyroid looks normal and Jeff told me I was up for a roller coaster after an opened heart.

 

Now yesterday, still strange moods; although my mind seems detached from them. Like the emotions are happening to my body and not to myself or my mind. Mostly restlessness and some episodes of feeling intense love.

 

I know I that my life is on a pivotal moment and I wanted to talk to someone who is a renown seer. Only she charges a lot and is probably on spring break.

Now today, my wife talked to an old friend who also is a spiritual practice and she looked at me. She said I am evolving and ascended masters (a lot of them) are helping me through it.

She adviced doing nothing but take plenty of rest and wait it out. She will see me on friday. Meanwhile this afternoon went to my general practitioner who seems to be clueless on thyroid hormones. I secured an appointment with one of the best endocrinologists (thanks to a family connection).

 

So here I sit on a Tuesday evening; waiting and trying to rest.

Well, I could use some soothing and actually I might want to be a testament to whatever I am going through.

 

 

 

 

[Taoist Texts]

3 hours ago, Hannes said:

Jeff here did some energy work and I started to indeed feel better; but not completely well yet.

 

 

The next week the symptoms returned and with the added stress of financial problems I felt dark thoughts on Tuesday. I thought about killing myself 

what can one say? Nice work Jeff. Again.

[phil]

Everything that needs healing will come to the surface,  including believes, thoughts and illnesses that just don't suit your new energy. You will have to let let some old stuff go and open up for new one. True self love needs to be discovered. 

The easiest way to get through this is probably to just let it happen and to trust in the process, knowing that there are invisible forces helping you everytime you need support, just waiting for your call. 

Wishing you the best 

[Apech]

8 hours ago, Hannes said:

What is happening to me? Is a question for which I kind off know the answer already; although I don't know what the answer means.

Let me tell you a what happened to me during the last year; and especially the last month. Maybe some of you can bring clarity, or at least it may provide a nice anecdote.

......

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hi,

 

Good to hear you are taking medical advice and blood test etc.  If your GP doesn't understand thyroid related hormones (which surprises me because it is not uncommon) then find a specialist and get a course of treatment.  I know a few people who have suffered in this way and massive mood swings and strange personality changes are par for the course.  I am sure that proper treatment is available and effective.

 

Naturally you could argue that the physical symptoms/condition are a result rather than a cause and that you need to look to your subtle body and your mind for a real solution.  I would say that you can see from your symptoms that this is all about regulating and balancing energy.  Now you might be able to to get sensitive outside intervention to help with this - but even if you do the real cure comes from yourself.  I don't mean this in a New Agey kind of way but genuinely you have to intend to be well, work on your own sensitivity and 'control', try to find ways that gently allow energy circulation and harmony to be established.  This coupled with positive ideas about yourself and what you are doing should at least give you the basis for finding a better condition for yourself.  But definitely first get the right pills - then start to work on your energy.

 

 

 

 

[Apech]

Hi again :),

 

First time I've read this thread (above) and I am amazed that you got all that advice without anyone saying 'go see a doctor or other medical professional advice'  - seems you were doing this but still ......

 

 

[Hannes]

8 hours ago, Taoist Texts said:

what can one say? Nice work Jeff. Again.

 

Since I sense some sarcasm in here I just wanted to add that the most bad I felt was before Jeff helped me.

He eased my distress and fixed my energy overload and probably sped up my transition to whatever it is I am becoming with days, or weeks.

This is more then what any of the medical professionals (with exception of my surgeon) I have seen lately have accomplished.

So big thanks to @Jeff for helping me in that crisis moment.

 

[Jeff]

2 minutes ago, Hannes said:

 

Since I sense some sarcasm in here I just wanted to add that the most bad I felt was before Jeff helped me.

He eased my distress and fixed my energy overload and probably sped up my transition to whatever it is I am becoming with days, or weeks.

This is more then what any of the medical professionals (with exception of my surgeon) I have seen lately have accomplished.

So big thanks to @Jeff for helping me in that crisis moment.

 

 

Thanks for the kind words.  

 

p.s. for the group. It was a momentary rebalancing, we have not done any ongoing work together.

[liminal_luke]

Hi Hannes,

 

I just want to echo what Apech said about mood issues and thyroid problems -- they go together.  It`s medically complicated stuff and not every doctor will be inclined to order the right tests or interpret them properly.  We are physical beings and what might seem like an emotional or spiritual problem (and is of course in some larger sense), can often be resolved by getting the physical part of us well-regulated.  This goes double when the disregulation is anything "thyroid."

 

Just my two cents.

 

LL

[s1va]

4 hours ago, Apech said:

Hi again :),

 

First time I've read this thread (above) and I am amazed that you got all that advice without anyone saying 'go see a doctor or other medical professional advice'  - seems you were doing this but still ......

 

 

 

To be fair, he just described the health issues in detail.  There were no signs to suggest medical professional advice initially on this thread.  Unless, we want to advise everyone asking any sort of help/question to seek medical advice.   

 

As Karen pointed out recently (on another thread), the TDB general terms and policies clearly state to seek medical help for any health related issues.

[Apech]

1 hour ago, s1va said:

 

To be fair, he just described the health issues in detail.  There were no signs to suggest medical professional advice initially on this thread.  Unless, we want to advise everyone asking any sort of help/question to seek medical advice.   

 

As Karen pointed out recently (on another thread), the TDB general terms and policies clearly state to seek medical help for any health related issues.

 

 

not the point really.  But my views are well known so I won't say any more.

[Bindi]

21 hours ago, Hannes said:

What is happening to me? Is a question for which I kind off know the answer already; although I don't know what the answer means.

Let me tell you a what happened to me during the last year; and especially the last month. Maybe some of you can bring clarity, or at least it may provide a nice anecdote.

 

Since September I was getting more and more tired. So tired that by December I was sleeping more than half the day. Ten hours at night and 2 after work in the afternoon. My mood was low and gray. I started to feel hopeless.

During the Christmas break I got the flue so bad I thought I was going to die; but I lived. Still I became even more tired and start getting symptoms of depression.

Half way through February I got a stomach problem so painful that my wife drove me over to the ER. Gastritis was the diagnoses and we were ready to leave until the doctor rushed and said, you need a scan. Your blood calcium level is dangerously high.

So after tests they found a benign tumor on one of my parathyroids. Those are 4 little glands behind the thyroid that regulate calcium level.

 

Now on March 1st I had an operation done by an excellent surgeon and it is true that I felt ten years younger afterwards. Only with the apathy lifted I started to feel anxious and had a couple of panic attacks.

 

Now two weeks later, on a Sunday I went to a small wellnessgathering where a friend of mine (who was my 1st level reiki teacher 4 years ago) apparently opened my hearth. Which in itself was a nice experience.

Now, I started to feel more and more nervous and weird and on the Wednesday after I posted a thread here where I stated I needed something.

Jeff here did some energy work and I started to indeed feel better; but not completely well yet.

link to thread

 

The next week the symptoms returned and with the added stress of financial problems I felt dark thoughts on Tuesday. I thought about killing myself but I couldn't. For I love my wife too much and I know that I will live into my seventies; since as a child I have seen my departure from this world.

 

Now on Thursday I had a kind of nervous breakdown and since my wife didn't know what to do with me she brought me to her shrink she was about to visit. He couldn't let me go, so he instructed me to go to the ER.

I didn't mention to him the spiritual stuff ofcourse, but I told him the dark thoughts.

 

Now, after a night at the ER they put me in observation. Since I don't have any symptoms of depression or any other disorder; the doctors were puzzled until they got my bloodtests back. Grace be given, they did a thyroid test.

Apparently I have a thyroid issue. Only, my thyroid looks normal and Jeff told me I was up for a roller coaster after an opened heart.

 

Now yesterday, still strange moods; although my mind seems detached from them. Like the emotions are happening to my body and not to myself or my mind. Mostly restlessness and some episodes of feeling intense love.

 

I know I that my life is on a pivotal moment and I wanted to talk to someone who is a renown seer. Only she charges a lot and is probably on spring break.

Now today, my wife talked to an old friend who also is a spiritual practice and she looked at me. She said I am evolving and ascended masters (a lot of them) are helping me through it.

She adviced doing nothing but take plenty of rest and wait it out. She will see me on friday. Meanwhile this afternoon went to my general practitioner who seems to be clueless on thyroid hormones. I secured an appointment with one of the best endocrinologists (thanks to a family connection).

 

So here I sit on a Tuesday evening; waiting and trying to rest.

Well, I could use some soothing and actually I might want to be a testament to whatever I am going through.

 

 

 

 

 

If you are going through the symptoms of a thyroid hormone imbalance it might be helpful to do some research on how this affects the body and mind, it would be good to know to what extent your current experiences are grounded in physical reality as opposed to various spiritual explanations. 

[Gerard]

Textbook TCM issues. Let's stick to Taoist science and leave all those ascended masters hoopla behind. 

 

1. Tiredness ---> weak Spleen

2. Sore throat ---> weak Lung

3. Suicidal thoughts, depression ---> weak/blocked Heart

 

One element generates the next in the Sheng (generative cycle); Fire generates Earth. & Earth generates Metal.

 

Acupuncture and Herbs will help and restore the correct flow of Qi along the Sheng cycle.

 

Plus meditative work, a lot of it because negative emotions or emotions out of control will weaken and make sick the normal Yin & Yang balance of the internal organs (energy associated with it really not the physical aspect which is only mechanical) preferably IMA and Vipassana in a retreat centre run by monks not lay practitioners. 

 

Something for you to ponder:

 

I have learned that most things I worry about would never happen.

 

Good luck

Edited March 29, 2018 by Gerard