Greetings. I need some help.

[Anjimitosan]

Hope everyone's doing alright.

 

I've been creeping this site on and off for some wisdom. Sometimes I found a bit, sometimes none, sometimes a trove of it. 

Maybe it's time to become somewhat active. Maybe my current situation is a sign.

 

A sign, as it were, is nothing more than a coincidence. It's us who give it meaning. 

It doesn't even matter if such a coincidence was caused by someone, or something else.

 

And when I encountered trouble on my path I remembered this forum.

And so, even though I know a bit about you, you don't know anything about me.

At least for now. 

 

I've been cruising different types of practices during my years. Lately I found myself in a bit of a pickle.

 

One day, two weeks ago, I read that if your lower and upper dantien were filled enough it's sufficient to move your consciousness from lower dantien to upper dantien and then to the seat of consciousness to attain a high level of development. At the time that this information found me I had filled them a lot through practice. That same day I moved my consciousness involuntarily from lower dantien to upper dantien then to my seat of consciousness. Of course, I didn't concentrate of moving the qi with it. Due to the information I got before, I was heavily distressed, so much that I haven't slept a bit that night. 

 

Usually I felt my seat of consciousness as a pearl. It sort of shattered, though my self still radiates from there. I have trouble with visualization as well as problems wih moving mu consciousness around, though before the incident it was as easy as breathing. 

 

I practiced Kriya and Tummo as well as visualization exercises to try to alleviate this state and return to the balance. 

 

I've always been vulnerable to fear, though usually I retreated inwards, while my body took care of most of the problems. This time it's different.

 

My question is - Is it the panic that I fell into after doing something I thought was potentially harmful (because of my unreadiness) causing those problems and they will disappear in time or is it something more serious and should I look to exercises or maybe a master's intervention to fix?

 

Much love and respect to you all, I guess.

Thanks.

Edited Saturday at 10:50 AM by Anjimitosan
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[forestofclarity]

Welcome!

[Cobie]

Welcome to the forum.