God & Soul - East 'n West - The Wisdom Of The Enneagram

[Nuralshamal]

Dear Daobums,

Felt like sharing some of my realizations about God, Soul, East, West & the Enneagram.

God & Soul - East 'n West
In general Daoism, Buddhism and Hinduism as cultures are very collectivistic, it's all about the family, tribe, clan, caste or group.

Further, the religions strongly emphasis the great, all-encompassing, impersonal Absolute. The universal consciousness.

The Dao, Nirvana & Brahman.

In Western culture and philosophy there's an enormeous amount of focus on the individual consciousness. The person, the soul, the individual.

In the East it's all about giving everything up, melting, dissolving, disappearing, remove everything until only the universal remains and we escape this world and the issues of our personal life. The aim and focus is always the impersonal.

In the West it's all about the development of the individual: virtues (things to cultivate), sins (things to avoid), achievements, development, personal fulfillment, it's all about the individual life journey in this world, the personal adventure, overcoming challenges and obstacles, evolving and acheiving your dreams. The aim is always the individual.

The Enneagram
In the enneagram there are 9 types of individual consciousnesses, or types of individual souls.

According to the Diamond Approach and the Diamond Logos, a synthesis and further development of sufism, buddhism, daoism and modern psychology, we actually have 2 types, which gives us very important hints about why we came to this world.

Each type has an ego-mission and a soul mission.

The soul mission is why our soul came to this world, what we wanted to do, what we wanted to create and contribute, what we wanted to develop and experience.

The ego mission is how our soul lost track of this due to family dynamics and instead got trapped in a particular soul quality. It got fixated on saving the family.

The idea was to temporarily help our family to be more harmonious, to fix it, so we could then afterwards continue our soul mission. Instead suddenly one day we couldn't make the "switch" anymore between this world and the soul world, and we got lost/trapped/crystallised in the ego.

This is between 0-7 years of age.

Then from 7 to puberty, we grow and develop our ego psychologically, becoming functional members of society.

Then in puberty we relive the same pattern, our soul reawakens temporarily,  now instead of it happening as family dynamics, it's social dynamics with our peers.

Here we actually live our soul-life for a little while, but towards the end of puberty the same thing, same pattern crystallises again.

Here the only 3 natural, built-in God given opportunities remaining to re-awaken are souls effortlessly are romantically, sexually, when we get children and they from 0-7 years of age naturally live as souls, when we get grandchildren or great-grandchildren, or when we experience the death of our loved ones or similar huge crisis.

Apart from these natural, built-in opportunities, spiritual practice is the last avenue of actively pursuing development.

If you're an enneagram type 1, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them "pink essence" or the soul quality of appreciative love. Pink, sweet, fluffy, feels like candy floss. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 4, living as your Point of Light, your atma, your individual, immortal consciousness, your soul identity.

If you're an enneagram type 2, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them "golden essence" or the soul quality of precious, merging love. Golden, sweet, thick, merging and relaxing, feels like golden honey melting you. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 5, living as your inner Diamond Guidance, seeing life with precision, clarity and precision, and guiding accordingly.

If you're an enneagram type 3, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the "pearly stupa" or the soul quality of being an embodied, soulful person, effortlessly in contact with this World, yourself, other people and Being at the same time, being completely at ease, in autonomy and generating essence in this World as well as the world of Being.  Contactful, personal, pearly, autonomous and at ease in your body. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 6, living as the formidabel, indomitable, unbreakable, unshakeable grey, white and brilliant citadel embodying steadfastness, discipline, solidity, protection and support.

If you're an enneagram type 4, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the "Point of light" or the true, meaningful, immortal soul-identity.  It gives a sense of meaningfulness, everything is magical, and you feel completely like yourself. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 7, embodying the Diamond Dome, the mind of Being, effortlessly seeing life and Being from innumerable angles, accepting, seeing, understanding and integrating understanding of all the domains of life and Being.

If you're an enneagram type 5, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the "Diamond Guidance" or objectivity, clarity, precision and guidance. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being an 8, embodying essential strength, power and passion in this world.

If you're an enneagram type 6, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the "Citadel" or formidabel, indomitable, unshakeable and virtuous way of life feeling supported and protected by Being. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 9, embodying the boundless states of the Absolute, the living Daylight and the Divine - a feeling of absolute simplicity and normalcy, everything is okay as it is.

If you're an enneagram type 7, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the "Diamond Dome" the mind of Being, effortlessly seeing life and Being from innumerable angles, accepting, seeing, understanding and integrating understanding of all the domains of life and Being. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 1, living as pink, appreciative love.

If you're an enneagram type 8, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them embodied strength, power and passion in the Body. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 2, living as precious, golden, merging love.

If you're an enneagram type 9, your ego-mission is to save the family by giving them the boundless state of pure Being, the Absolute, complete normalcy, everything is ok, everything is normal. However, your soul mission in this life is actually being a 3, living effortlessly, completely at ease, in contact with yourself, people, the world and Being, as the true, soulful and essential person.

Implications On Ego vs Soul Life In The East & The West
No matter which path you take, you will never feel personal fulfillment with it.

No standardised path is a 100% fit to your unique, individual personal soul.

For instance, imagine a 4 walking the Hindu, Daoist or Buddhist path. They're desperately trying to show the world and family the importance of Being your unique, individual soul, until they can level up and instead reach the Diamond Dome of the 7, the Mind of Being.

Until they've graduated from being a 4, the path will actually work directly against them - everyday they're trying to show everyone the importance of embodying your unique soul, yet they're daily practicing to renounce this magical soul and instead go to the boring Absolute.

Similarly, no matter which standardised path you follow, it will never quite "fit", and your soul will never really individuate and develop and embody your full potential.

For instance, just look at every single prophet or Guru that ever existed. Did any Guru ever show up and simply preach "just follow the standard paths that are already there, that is more than enough".

Moses showed a new path, gave the laws.

Buddha revealed a new path, rebelling against a lot of the standards going on at the time.

Jesus showed a radical new path from Moses, even rebelled against "an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth".

Muhammad also went completely against the current establisment and suffered a lot for it.

If the standard paths are sufficient, why do these great messengers of Being always go against them? They even go against their family, something that's quite a shocker, as most religions preach the importance of blindly obeying and following elders.

Actually all of them rebel against family, religion, society, everything. That's also why they faced so much resistance in their time and day, as lazy people just want to maintain status quo out of laziness, or simply as mindless sheep followers.

So if all our great examples didn't just follow the established paths, but broke out of them to reveal something new and unique, yet very individual, just compare the teachings of these great people. Everyone was a very unique person.

They might all be in contact with Being, but they filter it through their unique soul.

Moses embodied patience, yet he also had quite the temperament, and punishment and judgement was a big part of his message.

Buddha was all about equanimity, compassion, clearing your mind and going into the Absolute.

Jesus for instance embodied love, forgiveness, peace and power.

Muhammad embodied steadfastness, inner support, human tenderness, yet also a sense of worldly and practical wisdom, knowing what it took to be functional in this world with trade, wealth, politics, women, sex and war.

Hard to say, but Moses was probably one of the emotional types, either 2, 3 or 4. Or could've been a steadfast 6 or an 8 with a temperament.

Buddha was probably a 5 or a 9, focused on a clear, objective mind as well as normalcy, just going into the absolute, let go off the craziness of this ego world.

Jesus could've been a 2, very loving and helpful, soul mission of 5 - giving clear, precise guidance. If you read some of his sayings, there's a lot of clear wisdom and understanding there about life.

Muhammad was so grounded, so practical, yet so heartful as well. Could've been a 6 maybe, steadfast and enduring.

Of course God knows best.

My point is simply to share what I've found in my journey, namely that just following a pre-set path will probably not do it for most when you're at the final stages of dismantling the ego.

My Own Journey
When I was I child I was immersed in the wisdom of the prophets (Christianity & Sufism) as well as the teachings of the Gurus (Hinduism & Buddhism).

When I was a teenager I immersed myself in Christianity & Yoga, until I found the Diamond Approach and Diamond Logos which I felt integrated all I knew, and gave me the tools needed to experientially and in a bodily, felt and tangible sense discover these Truths inside myself in a real, soulful and essential manner, instead of a mental, theoretical, conceptual manner.

In my 20s I was overwhelmed by practical life, and felt that always focusing so much on "how I felt" was actually detrimental to my functionality, I instead needed practical tools on how to navigate work, money, becoming and officer in the army, moving away from home, moving in with my girlfriend from a completely different culture, getting my bachelor's in business and figuring out how to function in all this practically.

In my late 20s I finally felt like I managed to suceed practically in this physical, material world. Got deployed 3 times with the army, rose in the ranks, got prestige, money and authority, figured out girls, sex and relationships, and felt like finally I had managed to create that practical stability and know-how I didn't have in my early 20s.

Similarly I felt I "hit-home" spiritually by leaving aside for a little while the whole ego-transformation, psychology and development, and went into the dimension of the life force through Qigong and Simplified Kundalini Yoga. It was practical, it was tangible, and it gave measurable benefits to my practical life.

My sleep improved, my health improved, I had boundless energy, could heal myself and others, had epic sex through sexual qigong and lovemaking, get girls, felt at one with the universe through SKY, I was content, I felt like I had found what I had struggled with for 10 years - how to be a man in this world, health, wealth, love & happiness through right living and spiritual practice with the chakras, meridians, dan tiens and life force.

Then I decided it was time to settle down, get a home, get a steady and stable girl - lo and behold, none of my life force practices could navigate this new jungle that opened up.

She was a traumatized refugee from the Middle East with a completely different psyche and idea of what home life should be like, and there was a political change with the army's international engagements leading to my flourishing career niche slowly drying out.

Suddenly everything was lost: home was chaos, work projects were dwindling, money was evaporating from my substantial savings, my health suddenly got messed up and no herb, mantra, mudra or qigong could heal it.

What happened?

The Universe forced me to get back into this whole Journey of emotions and ego-transformation. I stubbornly tried to use what I felt I had mastered, what gave me stability in my 20s, but the more gurus and teachings I sought out, my old go-to for fixing myself and my life (spiritual teachings and practices), the more I felt I was so incredibly dissapointed with these gurus - they said there were at such a high level, could do everything and were God's gift to humanity, but I realized they were just egos on steroids. They were still trapped in ego, defending a self image, trying to save the family, wishing to homogenize everything and everyone and shape the world into their own personal ideal - none of them felt human.

This was kind of a crisis for me - the oasis of spirituality that had nurtured and supported me and fueled my trek through the harsh desert of life suddenly started poisoning me instead.

What to do?

Helplessly, I reluctantly got back in the Diamond Logos and the Diamond Approach and started working with my Being, my Essence, my Ego again.

Suddenly I realized I was a 6 - my early family constellation had lacked a sense of grounding, protection, stability, security and guidance. None of my parents had a father figure when they grew up, and they had me as their first child when they're were only 20. So I had spent my whole life trying to provide my family with stability by always showing up, always doing the right thing, always being a peak-performer in school, sports and the army, always being this tremendous force of support and protection for everything and everyone (in the end, that's what soldiers do, they protect others).

I had grown tired of Qigong, yes it had healed me, but I was sick and tired of the teacher not showing up in a personal manner, embodying his unique self. Instead he actually shuts down everything and everyone who embodies their unique soul, hitting them figuratively with his teacher-stick, as he himself grew up in communist China in a culture that pretty much says there is no individual, it's all collective, there's the great, mysterious impersonal Dao. I was looking for protection, support and guidance outside of myself (as a 6).

Similar with the Buddhist teachers, Hindu teachers, none were real, individuated, soulful people - they were egos with superpowers (healing, prediction, psychic powers etc), but they didn't know about the journey of the individual soul.

After so many years of disapoointment, I realized I was looking for myself (stable, supportive, protective) outside myself. I was trying to support everyone, but no one was supporting me to be my true self.

The Universe did this on purpose - just like Muhammad smashed all the idols in the Ka'aba, Almighty God, The One Being, was smashing all my false idols.

Like God had taken me through mastering my body, my mind, my energy, my practical life, now it was time to level up and start mastering Being itself - starting with my Ego as a 6.

My whole ego is built around the family hole of "no support", meaning all my soul qualities and essence are all built on emptiness, invisiblity, no legs, no grounding, just floating around ready to collapse at any point.

This had been my blindspot for all these years, always unconsciously dodging this soul-destroying hole of "no support" and as a survival mechanism desperately supporting the people around me (family, gf etc).

However the only way through the hole is to jump in it. Just sit in the unbearable pain, watch and pray as Jesus said, mindfully observe as Buddha said - just BE.

Then slowly out of the hole of no support, the support of Being slowly comes.

Just like Josef in Egypt when he was imprisoned unjustly by Pharaoh's wife. He just sits and waits in the hole. However, day to day the plant grows, until finally it reaches the top and he manages to get out.

That's an allegory for how to deal with our soul - just BE. And Being will slowly slowly, day by day start metabolising our ego content and produce the ingredients needed to heal us.

No spiritual path or teacher could've brought me through this, only myself - but the guidance of the prophets and saints and of course the Diamond Approach and Guidance helped me figure out what was going on.

All those years I spent trying to save my family, fix them, my every thought, feeling and action steered and motivated by my ego-mission.

Now I see that support is inside myself, my own Being supports me. It's not social, it's not from family, it's not through mirroring or merging, it's from Being itself. Only by staying with my experience, literally Being with it, not by manipulating or fixing, that's what will grow the plant in the hole, produce the elements needed to administer healing.

And now I see that I was actually always stable, loyal, steadfast, enduring, patient, formidable, uncompromising with Truth, but I thought I needed to give it to others. I actually just need to give it to myself.

Now I feel like myself, like when I was a child - normal, natural, supported from the inside. Now I can live what my soul came here to do, just Be. As a 9, just journey into the boundless domains of the Divine, everything is ok, no drama, all is good.

I see it with my wife too. She's a 5. Whenever we see her family, she starts philosophizing and analysing how to fix them and their life. Whenever we've been away from them from a while, she just wants to live passionately in her body, dance, have nice food, enjoy and celebrate the beauty of living a juicy life as an 8.

But the slightest trigger will get her back, stuck on her ego-mission as a 5 to give clarity and precision to others to save them. Me2, suddenly I can get triggered and devise a plan how to support someone through their hard time, being there for them, guiding, protecting and supporting them.

But that's actually not what I'm here for - I'm here to enjoy the Absolute.

Conclusion
Any path you follow can only take you so far.

If you're discontent as an Easterner with a Western path, or a Westerner on an Eastern path, fear not, you're not alone.

Our family, cultural and religious background, our social condition, our whole psyche is set up differently from each other.

The enneagram as well as knowing your ego-mission and soul-mission can help you get back on track, reconnect with why you came to this world and not get lost.

God bless you