Guy Johnson

[guy johnson]

Hi Tao Bums,

 

Let me introduce myself. My name is Guy Johnson, (and my

partner who helps me write is Katrina.) I was born October 06

1950. I have had a fully awakened kundalini for over thirty years

and the wild ride of healing and divine knowledge from this on-going

event is more then I wish to write at this moment. I have spent my

life primarily as a carpenter, designing and building houses and

wooden ships. The oneness of expanding into the tools, materials, and

 

product is my daily food. Being, and the richness of the moment, is

my drink. Katrina offers the wild side of sensuality and

supersensitivity whilch allows my process to be humbled and gentle

and to acknowledge the feminine in our growth.

 

None of the time I spend in the divine energy is in the world of

verbal thought. Society and all its inventions (religion, written

language, speech and culture) are not divine. Judgement and money are

the inventions of man, forces which allow and have allowed him to

exercise control. Money is the most important God to all but a few.

Our culture has been historically designed to recognize our

differences only, and is essentially opposed to the Divine and the

state of "Being," in that it has no way to recognize the unity of

all.

 

We are all one. Every living cell is a divine, separate entity with a

full emotional life, and in various combinations, these individual

cells agree to bond together to make up living species. A human's

cells live and die within the body, but the life force of the whole

continues. The process of the living and dying, and rebirth and the

passing on of genetic information (which includes ancestral

emotional history) continues as long as the organism survives or

procreates... it is witnessed as we pass our emotional history on to

our children. The energy of all humans form an Oversoul, in the same

way that our own life force is formed by our own cells. All living

species have this dynamic existence. The Ego represents the interest

of the individual, and identifies with our differences, and is

detatched from the knowledge of Oneness. It alone creates the

world's havoc.

 

So as not to create more havoc, let me define Ego as I see it.

 

First, the Ego is the verbal self. Language, and everything

communicated through speech, writing, or the memory bank, evolves

through that medium defined as the intellect's definition

of "Self. " It is the most obvious manifestation of Ego. The

internal library which carries all the visual scenes of our earthly

existence, and Ego-allowing reruns of the past, which is important

in the Ego's role of reinforcing self- image.

 

Our emotional history, both from the immediate life-history and the

inherited, past-life, emotional history, combine to form our basic

personality. This part of the is Ego is that which most of us

believe is unchangeable.

 

In order for a human to evolve to a state of enlightment, the Ego

must shift, allowing a change in how it defines itself. All

three catagories must be dealt with. I find the best first step is to

find the space between words, or a form of meditation. I advocate

meditation without a mantra. A mantra occupies the intellect and

allows easy access to an altered state. However, when the intellect

is occupied, intellect best serves the process of being. It becomes

a passive, but fully aware, observer of the exploration of the inner

self.

 

The human intellectualual fallicies of judgement and differentiation

do not exist in a silent mind. They are replaced by the beautiful,

loving energy of divination within. A danger that resides here is

that the Ego attaches to the experience of the Divine Energy and

identifies itself as Divine, without the emotional healing of the

human state having occurred beforehand. Behavior, or use of divine

energy, and knowledge are then tainted by the interpretation of the

Ego who is ruled by unhealed emotions.

 

In the case of an awakened kundalini, the individual can use female

energy to enhance male energy, but cannot be fully be in touch with,

or enhance the feminine with the male energy. The unbalanced Guru has

awsome personal power, but in truth is nothing if not balanced by his

female side.

 

The emotional world must be examined with a clear intellect. Damaged

emotional responses need to be identified, relived, and felt on a

cellular level, and then released to spirit. An acknowledgement that

PROCESS is the key to love, (not purification of the self, or ego,

or being) sets one free to the flow and life/love of the feminine.

A freed emotional being is grounded, and the freed emotions become

the tenticles of awareness of the world. The individual is free to be

grounded so he/she can become fully integrated with the

feminine/dark/processing/universal aspects of self. This step has

been the most difficult for me, and I still am presented with its

glitches.

 

The visual record, without the noise of the intellect constantly

defining itself and preventing self-examination, fades and loses

importance. Enlightenment is not the destruction of Ego, but rather

surrendering one's Ego to the Soul and the Soul's Divine purpose.

 

The role of the intellect becomes one of service, with an awareness

that the Ego is not Soul, but a passive observer and helpmate, honed

and skillful in its role of liasson between physical reality and Soul

energy.

 

The Ego is not the enemy of enlightment, but a beautiful instrument

to be tuned, designed and played to your liking.

 

We can release our souls from the prison of our beliefs. Without

the walls that confine us, we can soar and expand into universal

truth. To know the divine is to know that we know nothing. This is

why a truly enlightened soul is humbled in awe. Here, our knowledge

is unified, speechless, simply a state of "being". All beings,

enlightened or otherwise, are limited by their personal ability to

surrender their traditions, heal their emotions, and entrust their

beliefs to the Divine.

 

In honor of the tradition of knowing that less and may be more, I am

aware that much may still be revealed to me which makes this diatribe

we write today old, or obsolete. I hold no attachment to that

process, should it be revealed. Just, today, as we write, are we

aware that the very speaking of what we understand, may shift the

knowledge to some new plane. And in honor of the light that takes

it onward, remain in awe of that process.

 

Guy and Katrina

[sean]

Guy,

 

Really enjoyed your introduction post here. You have the unique honor of being the only member here (that I can recall) that has inspired a very thought-provoking and creative controversy before you'd even registered!

 

I find the best first step is to find the space between words, or a form of meditation.

Would you mind speaking a little about what you mean when you say "find the space between words". Do you mean the words of your own internal dialogue, the spoken words you use, the spoken words you hear others use, or all of the above?

 

An acknowledgement that PROCESS is the key to love, (not purification of the self, or ego,

or being) sets one free to the flow and life/love of the feminine.

I really like this perspective. It drops the compulsive "getting somewhere" aspect that I think it's easy to get caught up in on the path as a seeker.

 

The Ego is not the enemy of enlightment, but a beautiful instrument to be tuned, designed and played to your liking.

This line also resonates strongly with my own beliefs.

 

It's great to have you here,

Sean.

[guy johnson]

answers,

 

The space between words I use as the internal dialog although that does not exclude writing or speaking which would be defined as a subset of the interior dialog. The idea of achieveing silence of my mind came while watching an infant palaying with toys. The child was obviously thinking and was also too young to be formulating her thoughts into words. From this I realized that I was unaware of my own capacity to think without words but that I had at one time in my life been able to do so. I experimented with different techniques. All those that were will orientated in that I was attempting to will silence, were ineffective. What worked was grasping the thought, at any given moment, in my mind and holding the thought still foe as long as I could. The thought would disappear after a short duration. The imediate observable change was that instead of having a stream of thoughts which is the ususl experince, the new thought was unrelated to the previos thoughts. Concentrating on holding the thought was breaking the sycle of a stream of related thinking. I continued this experince for a few weeks of dedicated practice. I was slowing the the transition between thoughts and I began to notice a sensation of pleasurable energy between the unrelated thoughts or mental images. This is what I refer to as the space between words and when this energy experinced in the space between words was grasped with the will I experince a rapid increase of both intensity and pleasure. This energy I realized was pre verbal thought in the form of light and could be experinced simutainiously as intense pleasure and wisdom through insights. I did not use a mantra or other technique to occupy my mind so I experinced while being fully intellectualy aware.

 

Without words a number of observable changes in experince takes place. There does not exist a format to judge others while maintaining a silent mind. Secondly there are not beliefs as beliefs are a function of ego and language. Third emotional triggers are not activated by beliefs, only events trigger these emotional behavior patterns. Without intellect being ocupied by a stream of verbal thoughts awareness of triggers is achieved and with this awareness and allowing the emotion to come up and be experinced the entire behavior is let go.

 

Karma plays an intricate roll similar to the chicken and the egg

syndrome. Meditation is a key to awakening kundalini through the abiliy to

explore ones inner energy with a conscious yet silent mind. A silent mind

is not judging but is aware and astute, consequently time spent in silence

will likely bring a stream of insights into knowing ones self. This clear

silent mind can identify and through concentration increase kundalini

awakening and perhaps achieve that rare event of a complete awakening.

While we are going through the process of awakening our energy our emotional

repetitive behavior becomes evident and very demanding of time and energy.

Exploring the emotional dark side does not feel like anything that might

lead to an existence in samadhi but with careful awareness and surrender one

can allow the stored energy behind emotional patterns to surface and by

allowing, through letting go of the fear of death the emotional memory stops

having control over one's habits and behaviors. Karma is an attempt at

understanding behavior and events that follow throughout ones life. An

emotional memory causes us to make repetitive choices with similar or even

spiraling consequnces that appear to be unescapable. Since emotional memory

is stored in the DNA, these emotional patterns are often inherited, as well

as being a product of the individuals personal emotional history, and are

reinforced through the patterns of the parents and family behavior.

 

Some enlightened beings have used their energy to heal their emotional

body and thereby freeing these capacities to feel for such work as physcic

gifts. Others live without feeling anything except bliss but though they

experince divine oneness they do not experince life. The intellect does not

feel and living just in the male energy is very excepted but only half of

the potential for an Enlightened Being. Generaly a sensitive being would

feel that this person was ungrounded because they are not connected to the

mother or life force energy. Enlightenment or a full kundalini awakening is

an oportunity to heal ones DNA of the pain left over from thousands of years

and is an evoultionary step for mankind and is referred to as burning ones

Karma. One can heal ones emotions and create a conducive environment for

awakening Kundalini or one can awaken ones kundalini and use the energy to

heal the emotions. The variations are endless.

 

Peace Guy

 

 

 

 

 

"find the space between words". Do you mean the words of your own internal dialogue, the spoken words you use, the spoken words you hear others use, or all of the above?

I really like this perspective. It drops the compulsive "getting somewhere" aspect that I think it's easy to get caught up in on the path as a seeker.

This line also resonates strongly with my own beliefs.

[sean]

What worked was grasping  the thought, at any given moment,  in my mind and holding the thought still foe as long as I could.  The thought would disappear after a short duration.  The imediate observable change was that instead of having a stream of thoughts which is the ususl experince, the new thought was unrelated to the previos thoughts.  Concentrating on holding the thought was breaking the cycle of a stream of related thinking. I continued this experince for a few weeks of dedicated practice. 

Guy, thank you for the explanation of this. I think it's really fascinating that you've just carved out your own path and discovered techniques by observing the world around you. This technique you describe is very similar to one in Osho's The Book of Secrets (which, come to think of it actually contains 112 techniques he claims cover every practice that functions to awaken).

 

Others live without feeling anything except bliss but though they experince divine oneness they do not experince life.  The intellect does not feel and living just in the male energy is very excepted but only half of the potential for an Enlightened Being.

Interesting insight. It's similar to what Michael Winn, an alchemical Taoist teacher to many members here, speaks about.

 

 

Sean.